wow...NSV...amazing transition

You guys, this is serious.

I used to walk into the gym when there were other people and feel really self conscious and uncomfortable.  But today I walked into the gym where 2 other guys were there and i didn't feel self conscious. In fact I felt sexy and confident. I felt like all the guys were checking me out. lol. even though i can see my stomach giggling in the mirror as i use the elliptical, it doesn't sway my swagger. the other day there was this super super HOT guy working out. he was annoying because he took over the entire half of the gym with the weight machines and dumbbells. and he had this boombox. i mean a boombox. hello!! ever heard of headphones. sheesh. but he was hella hot. so i was torn. lol. eventually i got sick of waiting for this guy to leave so i walked right over and got on one of the weight machines myself. like a big fuck you. lol. i'm not gonna let you stop me from doing weights. lol. and in like a few min, he decided to leave. oh wellios! i'm not intimidated by men! even hot men!

another awesome thing is my sex drive is slooowly but surely coming back. my god...i haven't felt this way since i was about 19 or 20. i'm so glad to be off the pill. my body feels more normal and i feel like more of a woman.

also i've been dressing more girly lately and i love it. i feel so feminine and sexy. i love my newfound confidence. its also fun that i'm not undressing men with my eyes. lol. i'm so bad!! but guys do it all the time, why can't we?

they say confidence is the best accessory. and even though i might not be outwardly as confident yet, i mean, its not obvious. but i do have an inner confidence. this is all so new to me. its amazing. and this is just the beginning. i'm going through a transition now. i think my confidence and sexiness as well as sex drive will continue to improve. i'm so happy about this :)