its been 2 weeks

thats 14 whole days of having a heavy period.

Teryaki Chicken, chicken dumplings

Update

still sick
still bleeding

drinking more water though

Weird chest cold

oh man i don't wanna be up right now. i'm so tired. but this fucking painful cough won't let me sleep. i just want to sleep. i guess there's phlem in my lungs thats like a solid mass. i need to loosen it up and cough it out. but nothing seems to be helping. and whatever muscles i use to cough are raw. its painful. this bloowwwwws!


by the way my mom took me to see a hypnotist today. i dunno. the process seemed like it could work but some of the stuff he was saying just sounded unrealistic. can't we just eat a healthy diet? not deprive ourselves of anything and just eat in moderation? if you start putting all these restrictions on it, like no bread, then you're gonna feel like you're on a diet. be realistic people. i swear if its not one thing its another.

Ok this is getting old

its been 6 days and i'm still on a heavy flow. i feel like, if given the time, my body could regulate itself. but i don't have that kind of time. maybe if i was staying home for the next 2 months. but i'm starting school. i have to take the bus. can't afford the discomfort, not to mention stains. no. i *might* give it till the end of the week but i've got the pack of birth control pills waiting for me. i would hate to get back on the pill after finally getting it out of my system but i'll do it if i have to.

The Last Hoorah

The holidays sucked this year. Christmas morning was great, and i'm happy with my gifts. but other than that...oof. and i'm trying to figure out why they sucked when last year was so great. maybe because last year i wasn't really expecting anything spectacular. i had spent the previous christmas (2006) in boston with ed so it was nice to see all the cousins. but this year i was building it up for an entire year. i had these expectations. i made it so big in my head that it couldn't possibly live up to it. also hanging out with everyone didn't seem as fun. i don't know why. i love them to death and i enjoy seeing them but for some reason its not as fun as before. i don't know if i've changed or maybe i'm just weird and awkward. but it seems to me like we each have our own individual sense of humor and they don't really click so well. does that make sense? also it seemed like there was less to talk about this year. hmm...

well anyway last night was the last cousin based get together for the holidays. the last of them went back to ny today. today is Avenue Q which i've been looking forward to. but between my mom bitching about how far ft laud is (everything is far if its outside of kendall), my sister being herself, my never ending period, and this fucking cold i'm getting...i'm afraid of whats to come today.

also i'm sad that ed's vacation is over. :( very very very sad. sigh. i wish neither of us had to work so we could spend every day together. i feel a bit jipped because he didn't get into vacation mode till about the 2nd week of vacation. oh well.

Period update

still have my period. going through tampons like crazy. pretty cool. lol. i know its weird. when i was on the pill my periods were very light and lasted one day maybe 2. this is 3 days of bleeding. pretty cool. why? because this is my body. being normal, on its own. thats a big deal for me. i feel womanly and normal. at least some part of my lady parts works.