BAD WEEK

1. ed was massaging my feet and i guess he pressed too hard on the top of my foot and i sprained or fractured something. because its all swollen on the top of my foot to my ankle. painful to he touch and i can't point my foot either.

2. my wisdom teeth that i've neglected are coming back to bite me so to speak. the one on the top right is coming out and its hurting. on both sides! meaning that even my throat is swollen where the tooth is pushing. so it hurts to swallow, chew, and i can't open my mouth wide. it hurts to yawn. i need to have it and 2 others surgically removed. i called the surgeon and i have to come in at 9am friday and pay $45 just for a consultation. by friday i'll probably be on liquids only.

3. i have my parents car while they're on a cruise. its a big white mini van. i'm used to my small vibe. so i guess i underestimated the gerth while coming out of my parking garage and i scraped the side of the car on a concrete column. the guilt is eating me alive. and i thought that i could get it fixed but the mechanic wants to charge me $850 for it.

today the combination of all these things became so overwhelming that i lost it at the store. i started to cry and i just wanted to collapse to the floor and say "i give up!!". but i had to snap out of it and say look its not that bad. there are plenty worse things in life. i can handle this. tv helped get my mind off it.

then...the silver lining in the cloud was that Barack Obama is coming to UM to speak on friday. so i signed up to get a free ticket. but i had no one to go with. ed tells me he's gonna go with me. this is HUGE. because he is willing to take off work for the morning at least and share this experience with me. this makes me so happy. but when i go to get another ticket (for my grandmother who i was going to bring along) i see that there are no tickets left. so now i can't go with ed. and i have no one to go with.

and there you go. a shitty week and its only tuesday. i've got 3 whole days for this shit to keep falling. i already know a friend is coming over tomorrow and i really just wanna be alone but i promised him. and friday i have to be at dadeland by 9am for this stupid consultation. be at dadeland at 9am. from coral gables. guess what time i have to leave. guess what time i have to wake up. yeah..its not gonna be fucking pretty at all.