Ok so part of me is like let get a job. We need a job. We need to contribute. We want to have worth. People think I'm some bum who sits at home all day. And can you blame them? I kinda do.
So I apply to jobs. Now its getting to the point where I'll apply to anything that will pay decent. But I'm freaking out a little. Because the thought of working some mediocre whatever job the rest of my life scares the shit out of me. No offense to anyone but I don't want to be like my parents and work some lame job my whole life. I always wanted more for myself. I went to school and learned all these great things and applying them to the real world is so much harder than I thought. All I ever wanted was a cool career. Something I could be proud of. Somewhere where I could use my creativity. Something that provided for my family but also gave me a sense of pride. Something people could look at and go "wow, she does that? thats so cool!"
But with every passing year I see myself getting older and find those opportunities slipping away. And it kills me. I will feel like such a complete failure in life if I just worked some ho hum job and never made something of myself. Thats my biggest fear.
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It's tough finding a job right now. Sure, having one is a great thing, but don't settle for just anything. Having a job that you're proud of is important. So don't settle. =)
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