dear diary

i'm trying not to feel worthless. its an ugly trait to feel that way so easily. but i was so close to feeling worth something. so close. but i didn't get the job. now i'm totally lost. will i ever get a paycheck? my husband seemed so happy at the thought of me getting a job. and i don't blame him. you can tell yourself over and over again, if you don't get it, no biggie, move on. but then when it happens...easier said than done.