When I got home I got to work. I had been collecting little bits and pieces of things for a week to put together something for Ed. Finally on Friday everything came together nicely and I was able to make this one thing for ed. Not much. I mean, what can he do with it. But its hand made and made with lots of love. And here it is...
I was working on it all day so I didn't take a nap. I was tired. But it was almost time to pick him up so I left to get get my hubby wubby so we could start our Vday celebration. When I got to his work though I checked my phone and saw a voice mail from him. I checked it and he said his boss called him in as he was leaving and he's in a meeting with him so he needs some more time. I put a quarter in the meter and waited. The windows were down, the sun was almost all the way down, there was a beautiful breeze. I felt like I was on vacation. I was soaking up the good part of Miami when I got another call from Ed on my cell. I wondered why he was calling again instead of coming down. I'm guessing the meeting was going longer than expected. But no. He drops this bomb on me. "I was just let go. I need to clean out my office right now."
WHAT?!!?! WHAT!??!!?!?!?! omg omg I started bawling. I totally lost it. My poor poor baby. I told you they were out to get him!! I'm not gonna go into too much detail because God knows they might find this blog and I don't want to cause any problems. But talk to me personally and I'll tell you the details.
I called my mom who's in LA at the moment and just bawled my eyes out. I should mention that after I dropped off Ed this morning, my dad called me from LA to tell me that my uncle Felix (his brother) passed away last night. So the past 48 hours have been an emotional rollercoaster for me. I said "omg what are we gonna do?!" because Ed is the breadwinner. I'm interning right now, not getting paid at all. We're so fucked!!!! My mom said "calm down mama don't cry. Don't worry, it'll be ok. If anything you guys can stay with us. I'll clean out the room and you can stay there. Don't worry. Ed will find something else." It was a real "I want my mommy" moment for me. She was so comforting. And I thank GOD that this happened here in Miami where we have family that we can turn to. I am so grateful for that. You don't even know. My poor baby. He didn't deserve that. He's such a good boy. He's better than me, he's better than all of them. He's such a good kind soul that would never hurt anyone. He's been working hard since college and he doesn't complain. He didn't deserve that shit. I wanted to run in there and defend him. Tell them all off. My heart breaks for him.
Despite the shock, which hit me really really hard, I'm starting to see that this was a blessing in disguise. Ed wasn't happy there. Now he can find something where he'll be happy. And change, though scary, is good. This happened once before, he was laid off of his first job, and I have to tell you, it was exciting. I loved having him home first of all. I loved watching him work his magic. The thrill of the chase as he searches for a new job. I also feel a sense of adventure. Something new is happening, its not the same old hum drum everyday, which is exciting. I also feel like he needs me more in times like this and I like that. I'm gonna step up and do what I have to do. I wanna be the shoulder for him to lean on. His support system. I'm behind him 100%. If he decides we have to move, fine. If we have to sell everything and move in with my parents, fine.
We'll be ok as long as we have each other. Thats all we need. Thats all I can count on in this world. And we're strong. We can make it. This is a true Valentines Day lesson. My husband and I love and support each other and we'll get through this. I'm optimistic about our future. We're not tied down. We can go wherever the road takes us. 2008 will be a year of changes and new adventures. Oh, the places you'll go...
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