a work rant

my work motto:

i'll work hard during office hours. i'll even stay late if needed. but not everyday. and when office hours are over i'm off call. unless some major emergency goes down and i'm needed to come in for a couple of hours and help. however i've never been in a position important enough to warrant something like that happening.

i say this because i was in the elevator coming up from the parking garage with this young girl who was obviously a cpb employee. and to make small talk i said "is it just me or are the weekends not long enough?" to which i expected a response like "oh tell me about it" or "i know!" but instead got this response "well get used to it. its always gonna feel like that on mondays." what a bitch. and that just about sums up the attitude of the people here. god forbid you say anything even remotely negative. or complain about anything. any normal person with a 9-5 job (especially those with families) will gripe about how the weekends are too short. and they fucking are! you work 5 days a week and get 2 off. in what universe is that fair? and chances are that one of those days is spent running errands you couldn't do during the week so its not really relaxing. its work. so you basically get ONE day a week to truly relax.

i really don't like the attitudes of people here. i mean they all work way too hard. i'm just not one of them. its a casual atmosphere sure. but don't let that fool you. they devote their whole lives to this job. they eat breath and sleep their jobs. thats not what i'm about. unless i'm high up in the company or have my own business i don't think i'll ever be like that. unless maybe i absolutely love what i do. even then there are boundaries. the main reason, i think, that these people are the way they are is because they're young and ambitious. they're fresh out of college and single. they don't have families. so they don't mind devoting their lives to work. what else do they have? but i came into this job with a family. and my family is only going to get bigger. and to me family is top priority. its one thing to have one person in the family working but to have both working makes things complicated. you never see each other. the only thing i have is the weekend. the short weekend. and if i want to come in all fucking tired on monday and say the weekend was too short then let me fucking say whatever i want.

stop making me feel like my working hard doesn't register because YOU worked just as hard if not harder as an intern. stop making me feel like i can't complain like any normal person can. i don't know if this is the place for me. if this is what the mentality is like i don't know how long i'll last here. i just feel like if you want to work hard its your prerogative to do so. but don't push that on to me. just because i'm not killing myself or working overtime doesn't mean i'm not getting the job done.

*edit*
to be fair it's the industry. this kind of industry moves fast. and this company especially. they pride themselves in doing things 3 times faster than the other guy. i would be just as happy to work for the other guy to be honest. if the pay was the same, the casual dress was the same but everything wasn't churned out in 3 weeks. i'm less concerned with being in the "best" company and more concerned with finding a job thats the right fit for me.