Transferring happiness

you know what i noticed today? before, when i was really heavy, i used to get so happy and excited when i would score some mcdonalds, get some ice cream from the store and candy for later. it would make me sooo happy. i got my bliss from food. emotional eater for sure.

but you know what i noticed today?? as i was running errands i noticed that i got that high from other things. now i get giddy about shopping for cake supplies. its like my disneyworld. i get sooo excited and inspired and get so many ideas. i want to make so many things. i'm always excited to look through my loot when i get home. i went to the grocery store an bought some sprouted grain bread and a new bigger mug for my tea. these are things i look fwd to. :) i'm so proud of myself for being able to transfer my happiness into something productive. and now i can be passionate and obsessed with baking. i love it.

i've been good. so don't worry about me. i indulge like once a week. but i'm still doing well :) everyone tells me i've found my calling. i'm not 100% sure because i've had many passions in life. i go head first into something, then get bored and move on. so i'm not sold yet. but i have been cooking for many years. and baking. just not on this scale. i truly truly love it. it combines my foodie passion with my love of creativity and decorating and wrapping even down to the packaging. i love it! i love designing logos and everything else. i just love it all. this is the first "passion" i've ever had where i'm actually making money. well no, not true, i made some good money for a little while when i did voice over. but this is the perfect part time, work for myself, career. i'm just so happy. and i fee like i found it. and i don't need to look anymore. this is it.