i don't understand

why don't ppl just leave me alone? yeah ok so i'm not the type you can count on to go out of her way to do things. but i've spent years getting that point across and most ppl know not to bother me. i don't like being someone's go to person for things. i feel used. i will occasionally help you out no problem, but don't abuse that.

now i have ppl in my own family who are just so nasty to me. and i want to cut them out of my life like cancer but they keep drilling their way back. i wanted to live close to my parents for when i have a baby but i'm starting to regret it now. it was so much easier when i lived far away and i wasn't responsible for anyone else but me. now i'm somehow being held responsible for my grandma and her brother. i mean come on! i'm the baby of the family. i didn't sign up for this. i love my grandmother but why is she my responsibility? maybe thats a horrible thing to say but i'm sorry man. its true.

i am at a place in my life where i'm trying to stay positive. this is the best time of my life, i'm finally trying for a baby. i don't need negativity in my life. why do people keep confronting me and shitting on me? why???? why can't they just leave me alonneee!!!! ugh!! what am i supposed to do????

trying desperately to wash off the negativity. surround myself with positive ppl who wish me well. how fucked up is it that people i'm not related to and in some cases have not even met in person are nicer to me and wish me better than my own flesh and blood.

i'm telling you, once i have a kid....i have no problems cutting anyone out of my life. i won't be a pushover. i'll be pretty fierce.