Most people I know, my parents and friends, are super supportive of my surgery. They've seen my hard work and my progress and they're proud of me. But then there are people who don't know me that well or don't see me often (like my GP today, and my friend's sister) who look at you with this wincing look like they don't believe you can do it. They're always trying to find what you're doing wrong instead of just applauding all you've done right. My doctor has seen me maybe 5 times since I started coming to her right b4 surgery. She hasn't seen me since before surgery. She spends about 5 min with me, like most doctors. She half pays attention, like most doctors. She has no idea what my life is like. But she feels the need to lecture me. She tells me there can never be "just one". Like I can NEVER have a slip up. I told her I went to Disney last weekend and didn't have much control over where we ate. And she lectured me and tried to make me feel bad. I'm sorry dude, that shit is real life. Shit happens. I made the best decisions I could for the most part and a couple times I just went with the flow. But I knew I was gonna get back to work. And I did. As soon as I got home I started eating right again and working out again. But nooo. She dug into me for that. I'm sorry but i don't believe in NEVER. I will not be on a "diet" the rest of my life. This is all about getting healthier habits, but we're all human and sometimes you splurge. Everything in moderation. I don't care if she's a doctor, I disagree with her. She doesn't really know what my issues with food were. So I can have a small piece of pie and be perfectly satisfied and I'm ok. I get the whole "be careful because one french fry leads to a plate of fries then you are back in those bad habits." I get that because i've been there and I know I have to be careful. But I don't believe in NEVER. It just really got to me. I don't think people realize how they can fuck with your mind. I don't want to let this bitch sabotage me with her shit.
I don't know about you but I do terribly with negative reinforcement. It always backfires. But if people give me positive reinforcement and praise then I feel good about myself and I try even harder to get more praise. Its that way with everything in my life from school to work stuff to personal stuff.
And not only her. I've had other people who I guess think wls is unnecessary or you'll gain the weight back or whatever. And they try to dig and dig and find something negative about your situation. I hate those people. Dude I cook fresh beautiful low carb food daily. I workout at least 5 days a week. I go to support group meetings every month. I haven't missed not one vitamin since surgery. I drink 64+ oz a day. I still struggle with my proteins but i get about 50g a day. So how bout a little fucking credit you dickhead. No you just gloss over that and try to find something, anything to poo poo on. And when you find nothing you still have that shit face on because you refuse to give me credit.
Well fuck you because i KNOW i'm good. I'm doing FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC! and you can't put me down or bring me down with your ideas on what i should be doing and how i should be acting or thinking or how much i should have lost by now. I know I'm following the rules and I'm fucking proud of myself. So let me just brush you off. *brush brush* I know how to do me. so you just do you boo boo.
You ARE fantastic and your doctor doesn't know what she is talking about! I bet she occassionally has sweets and fats. All naturally thin people do at times. Do they really think that we should NEVER have one little thing again for the rest of our lives? Just ignore her and in the future only tell her about the good your doing.
ReplyDeletethank you!!!!!!
ReplyDeletegurrrhhhl!!! PREACH IT! lol!!! i hate my doc too, btw-a real condescending prick...!
ReplyDeleteWow. Drs can be such assholes. I'm sorry that you're having such negative feedback - especially when you know you're doing so well! Nobody knows you like you do. Keep up your great work and prove them all wrong! You don't need a food police.
ReplyDelete@maybe this time hahaha some doctors are such jerks. i'm personally not a fan of doctors. never had one i loved. they always try to get you in and out as fast as possible and have you come in for stuff they can tell you over the phone just to get that co-pay.
ReplyDelete@gwen exactly. i don't need a food police. i stick to my guidelines and then some. i'm just fine.
YOU ARE DOING SOOOO GOOD! I think your doctor is just being like your security... because she is your doctor. That is her job.
ReplyDeleteI just get scared because I'm still scared about your surgery and what you had done and I don't want you to get sick... that's my only concern. I trust you are eating right! YOU TRULY are...I hate learning when food gets stuck..that just freaks me out! LOL!