over the whole food thing

you know maybe this will change the further out i get but right now i am so over the whole eating thing.

its weird. i still love food. i love to look at it and watch food shows and i LOVE to cook for others. but i don't feel the need to eat these foods. its just not fun anymore. i know some of my non surgery friends are appalled by this. but honestly its like a spell has been lifted off of me. its wonderful! to be around food and create food and not feel the need to eat it.

i feel like i'm forcing myself to eat to try to get my protein in. but i don't like that feeling. i'm gonna stop forcing myself. eventually i'll be able to get more protein in. forcing just makes me feel horrible. from now on i'll only eat when i need to. food for fuel finally makes sense to me now. eat when i need to. i don't live to eat. i think about food alot but its because i'm always thinking of what to cook next. its not because i wanna eat it.

I love making healthier meals and coming up with low carb/sugar free desserts. because even if i'm not eating much, the people around me eat better. my husband has lost 4lbs recently just from my cooking! how cool is that? its a challenge to come up with pretty and yummy dishes that are healthy but its really fun and rewarding. :)