Marriage rut

every marriage goes through periods of blah. we're going through one right now. not sure what caused it. if its something i did that bothered him (and he never told me), or the fact that i haven't been in the mood for sex in a while (guys feel closer to you after sex, go figure) or maybe there's no real reason. but its there. i don't think he notices, or cares. it could be one of those domino effect things. he's not affectionate toward me so i don't feel affectionate toward him but he's not affectionate because i'm not. its a vicious cycle. but i tried. i made the effort this weekend. i feel like he just wasn't interested. i should talk to him about it, but he just gets this blank stare like he has no idea what i'm talking about. so whats the point?

i know there are periods when he misses me and is happy to see me and wants to be around me. and then there are periods like now where we're just there. and it wouldn't make a difference if i was there or not. right now we're more like roommates than husband and wife.

i hope this lull ends soon. maybe it will end on its own. maybe i just have to wait it out. we'll see.

*edit* maybe its the depression. another side effect of PCOS and since this is my period week and i'm not on the pill, its probably that. i still think there's a lack of sweetness around here. but today i notice i'm having the blues. and i'm feeling lethargic.