My first endocrinologist apt.

An overall unpleasant experience.

First of all my apt is for 3pm. I get there at 2:45 to fill out any paperwork since I'm a new patient. Well i ring the doorbell and no one comes to the slide doors. so i sit. then about 15 min go by, they call the other woman in the room. so i ring the bell again. then after a few min someone finally comes out to help me. i do all the paperwork and then i wait. someone else comes in after me and gets called in before me. its 3:38 and i finally get called in. she weighs me and then sends me to the doctor's office. not an exam room, his actual office, which is cool because that way its less pressure on me. so i'm sitting there and its 3:45 and he finally comes in just to shake my hand and say he'll be back. then i wait another LONG 10 min.

This is really unprofessional in my book. I mean waiting an hour for your apt? Then when he finally comes in the room he doesn't even apologize for making me wait. Already that shows me how much he cares about his patients. Then he starts asking me about my medical history and about how often i got my period when i was 15. Um..i'm 29yrs old, i can't even remember shit that happened a few months ago. He asked me things and i felt put on the spot and couldn't think of the answers. Only because I was nervous, i did actually know the answers. but i looked like a moron.

The good thing is he seemed really knowledgeable about pcos and even recommended a book for me to read. But here's what I didn't like. Instead of commending me on losing 13+ lbs in 2 months, or the fact that since I found out I had PCOS i've totally changed my life and i've been eating healthier and working out, instead of that he tries to scare me. I don't respond well to scare tactics. Instead of being positive and saying, don't worry i can help you with this, its not the end of the world. he says things about gastric bypass, and i should be 100lbs lighter and that i should cut out ALL carbs and its gonna be hard. and just one negative thing after another. i don't know about you guys, but thats NOT the way to get me to do something. it has the opposite effect, i feel boxed into a corner and i rebel. i mean what he was asking me wasn't so far fetched, seeing as how i hardly eat any carbs at all. so cutting them out won't be too difficult. but the reason i've been able to do so well on my own is because i knew i had options. once you take those options away from me i feel deprived and it ruins all my progress and motivation. thats the problem with these strict diets. they don't work! and i'm sorry but there's nothing wrong with eating small portions of good carbs. just more scare tactics.

Plus he doesn't know my diet. I'm so sick of being judged. I'm so sick of people taking one look at me and thinking i eat tons of junk food. He has no idea!! I've NEVER been one to eat alot. I always get full quickly. and i've been eating VERY healthy for months now! but again, no positive. only negative feedback. doctors are assholes. its bad enough i have to deal with this genetic disorder that effects every aspect of my life (which includes depression), but every time i see a doctor i leave feeling worthless. The only positive thing he said was that my workout regiment was very good. But he did say I don't have to bother with lifting weights. I think thats bullshit. I really wish ed was there. i would have felt stronger. maybe not have been so weak. maybe he could have spoken for me when i couldn't. i hate going to doctors alone. i feel out numbered.

He also told me birth control isn't doing anything for my pcos. and it could actually make the insulin resistance worse. so he wants me to get off the pill as of now. And i have to come in next week and do some glucose test. which involves coming in fasting, taking blood, drinking sugar water, then taking my blood again 2 hours later. so you can only IMAGINE how much of my day i'm gonna waste at this place.

good news: he did say there was medication he could put me on that would help my insulin resistance and help me lose weight. but before he can decide what the best medication is he needs to see how my body works. so he wants me off the pill, i did some blood work today and i'll do the glucose test next week.

by the way, the lady who took my blood was in a bad mood and she was NOT gentle at all. she had a bad attitude, she wasn't nice, she stabbed me with that thing and then she pulled it out all hard and it hurt like a bitch!!! and she didn't even care. she acted like i was a grapefruit and not a person. let me tell you, that whole office could use a class in bedside manner.