i'm gonna be 31. i'm gonna start a family soon. one thing i've realized is life is too short. i have no need to keep people in my life who contribute nothing to it. thats why i'm constantly deleting ppl off facebook. i'm very selective of who i let into my inner circle. nothing personal, but i'm not a fan of acquaintances. having them is one thing, but letting them into my every day life is another.
i also feel like if you share nothing about yourself, yet you see everything i share about myself, its really unfair. and if you never talk to me, never leave comments, never respond to my comments, i don't really need you around.
this is all in regards to facebook of course.
but now i'm thinking...sigh...maybe its time to end some real friendships. people get older, grow apart, and sometimes they're better off going their separate ways. i'm really just at a point where if you cause drama in my life i don't really need it. if everything we say pisses us off maybe we shouldn't be friends. maybe we're better off apart. you have your life and great new things happening, so do i. and what i've noticed is, we don't have much in common anymore. our lives don't really intersect. its no one's fault. people just grow apart and go in different directions. you have your work, your bf, your other friends. i'm married and starting a family. we're at diff stages in our life. you work hard, i don't work. you judge me. i know. and thats ok. lets just not beat a dead horse. i'm not saying lets never talk again, but its ok if we're the kind of friends who only see each other once a year. i feel like we're holding on to something that isn't there.
so thats that. you'll never read this. i kind of hope you won't. because i'm a chicken shit. and i don't really wanna deal with the wrath that would be your reaction. but honestly i'm sick of walking on egg shells.
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Happy Birthday a day early!
ReplyDeleteI'm kind of going through the same thing with a friend. We've been friends for 25 years. I've often felt that I was the one doing all the work, but whatever, she was my friend. So if I needed to walk on eggshells, I did. Now because she thought she heard me say something she hasn't spoken to me in months. I go between being mad and being hurt.
But you're right... people grow apart and that's okay. So if you decide to cut ties, as long as you do it nicely you should not feel bad about it.
I kind of had the same thing going on with the wife of my husbands friend. There was definitely something missing between us and I blogged about it. Unfortunately (at the time) I found out SHE READ MY BLOG! Who knew? She never told me, she never commented, she just read it. I blogged how it hurt me that she really never commented on my weight loss and when it hit the fan, I knew why she never commented to me. she knew everything that was going on with me but I didn't know it! She didnt even have the courtesy to call me on it herself. I got a hateful email from her, I called to try to apologize (why, I will never know) I emailed her, and nothing! She hasn't talked to me since 1/15/11. The husbands still talk but its over for us and honestly, I am glad!
ReplyDeleteHappy early birthday! I hope it's a great day!
ReplyDeleteI've been realizing the same thing about friends, especially in the last few months. I'm tired of trying with some people, so I've just given up. And honestly, I don't miss those people.
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