confession time

i was doing so good. wen to the gym  monday. tuesday was a rest day but i  did some wii just dance. wed  went shopping, lots of walking and i was doing pretty good at being back to somewhat of a routine. at least with eating. until wed night. my friend invited us to her house. all she had was spaghetti and meatballs. spaghetti? i don't eat pasta! i prided myself for not eating pasta or rice for 4 months! and this month both of those records went out the window. i was hungry and you know what, it was one day. one day. so fine i had a little. but it wasn't too good or satisfying and didn't go down smooth. They asked me to do a beer run (they were all drunk by the way. i was the only sober person in a house full of about 8 other ppl) and in the midst of this they decided they wanted to munch on junk food. so they got cool ranch dorritos. i don't remember the last time i had dorritos. maybe in october. so yeah, i partook in that. had about 12 chips. then came the sweets. they had a ton. cookies, brownies, and a chocolate cake. eventually (i'm only human) my sweet tooth said come to mama! and i had a slice of chocolate cake. and let me tell you, it was straight up heaven. and it was actually yellow cake with chocolate frosting. store bought frosting which is like crack.

but then after i ate the cake...maybe about 10 min later..i started to feel really bad. like i was drunk too. i started to get really sleepy and didn't want to move. just wanted to sit alone in the dark in silence till it passed. i guess my blood sugar spiked and i became hypoglycemic. i'm not diabetic but this used to happen to me in the past if i ate a lot of something very very sugary.  but now, because i've cut down ALOT on sugar i can't even eat things like tangerines without becoming sleepy. i can't handle cake now? lol. well in the end i was like...man that whole thing was awful. i regretted like a drunk girl regrets the shots of jagermeister. which by the way, these ppl went through 3bottles of it last night. the feeling went away after maybe 30 min.  thank god i didn't lay down or i would have gone into a sugar coma. i just rode it out.

but i don't miss eating like that AT ALL. it was all just too much. maybe having one of those things here and there every once in a while, thats ok. but all of those things at once. i felt gross. yuck.

so yeah i deserve whatever i get for that one. for it being the holidays i'm doing pretty good. yesterday was honestly the worst day (eating wise). i'm not worried about new years because its going to be catered so there's bound to be more selection that just junk food. while i don't want the holidays to end because i'm enjoying this vacation time with my husband (been waiting for it all year), i will be glad to get back into a workout routine. i'll feel much better. i can't let the fact that i look good right now make me complacent. gotta keep working working working towards goal. so i can have another reveal in another 3 months.