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trying to stay positive in a hurricane of drama and crazy around me.

first it was the family therapy. that was rough and it affected me more that i probably realize. then my friend attacked me and i got plenty sick of her drama so i stopped going on fb, twitter, etc.

now my crazy aunt has ridden into town and she is a tornado of bad let me tell you. she is constantly demanding things, infringing on my good nature and using me for her own needs.

you know, i complain a lot about my mom guilting me into doing things but her way is so much more gentle. she suggests things. its a little passive agressive. but i prefer that over aggressive aggressive. my aunt simply demands thing. ugh its so fucking rude. she has burned every last bridge with the ppl in this family and now her last bridge, me, is starting to see her for what she really is and she's about to burn this last one too. how sad for her. but like my mom says, its her own doing.

i can't help but compare her to my sister. not only do i see a lot of her destructive ways in my sister, but i see a lot of her and my mom's relationship in me and my sister's. ughh there's just too much drama in the LBC for me.

i can't. i refuse. i'm cutting out ALL the drama in my life. even if it means cutting out old friends, even if it means cutting the social media. i'm trying to stay in my zen place.  the baby making process has started and the negative stressers will no longer be allowed in my zen space.