yeah i said it. i look on this pregnancy forum on obesity help.com and i keep seeing these women who lost 120lbs or more and who got all thin. you lose the most weight with RNY.
i dunno. its just gotten so hard. i'm almost a year out and its gotten so hard to lose weight. i lost 90lbs and at this rate i honestly don't know when i'll lose 100lbs. you think, its just 10lbs, no prob. but i'll lose, if i'm lucky 1lb, then maybe gain 2, then lose 1, gain 4, lose 3. you see what i mean? sigh....
i feel like a bit of a loser because its gotten so hard for me. i still eat well. but i find it almost impossible to cut out all bread products like my doctor wants me to do. sigh. i can't lose any more. i wanted to get to 100lbs of weight loss. my goal was 120lbs. psh. at this rate i won't make it to 100lbs weightloss by end of august. sigh....
maybe i should have just gotten RNY. i could have lost more. but dumping and never eating any sugar sucks.
people saw all this weight loss. they got used to seeing me thinner every time they see me. now that doesn't happen anymore. i don't think they understand i stopped losing. and if they find that out they're gonna think i'm fucking up. don't get me wrong, i have my moments. but don't we all? for the most part i eat well. its just so hard.
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I was just texting Jen(It is all about me....) about this same thing. I regret not having Gastric bypss too... sometimes. Because I have so much to lose and I feel like I will never get there. If it is so hard to lose weight at 350 pounds... what will it be like 100 pounds from now, Impossible that's how! I love sweets and I can't eat them in moderation so I can't eat them at all? What kind of life is that? I am glad I have the band but sometimes I wish I took the easier route too. I do think that when it comes off easier like that, you don't appreciate it enough to work to keep it off. I worked so hard to lose this 130 pounds that I really don't want to have to relose the same few pounds over and over again, just like I am right now. Anyway, I understand how you feel but remember the grass is always greener.
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