this whole year has felt like its been moving so fast. except for the last week and a half. time has just slowed to a crawl now. i feel like i'll never reach my destination at this rate.
i dream of the days i can have meat. its not gonna be for a month probably. or more.
this is the hardest thing i've ever had to do. ever. hands down. i wish my husband would give me some credit. he acts like what i'm doing is no big deal and he could easily do it. "its convenient to not have to cook" he says. its really a slap in the face. i don't care if he could do it or not. he's not me. i wish he would recognize that this is misery for me. all i want is some credit. " i can see that this is really hard for you, i'm proud of you for getting this far". thats all i ask. how hard is that to say? everyone else can say it, but not him. its kind of hurtful. he supports me in that he moves mountains so that i get what i want. and i appreciate him to death. but i also really need emotional support. especially on this journey. i just wish he would give me some credit sometimes. i always want to make him proud. i'm proud of myself. but it would be nice to hear him say he was proud of me.
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he is prima. men are different than women when it comes to that. deep down he knows this is hard for you. sometimes men just don't know how to show their emotional side. just tell him how you feel and he can ponder it and soon he will tell you. you'll see.
ReplyDeletethank you prima! it helps to hear you say that. :)
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