identifying a trigger

woah. today i was looking on CL for jobs and found one that i could possibly do. they were looking for someone to retouch photos using photoshop for their websites. the pay was good. problem is my skill in photoshop is to cut and manipulate pictures for graphics. i've never really had success retouching photos. so i set out to practice, even watched some tutorials on youtube. i was deep into the process of working on one picture when it struck me. the desire to have some potato chips. mind you i never really eat potato chips. i love them but i don't keep them in the house. but it was so weird. its like my brain new exactly what i needed to continue on this task, salty old fashion kettle chips. wow. it was a strong urge. i almost found myself getting up to get some when i realized, not only can i not eat chips, i can't eat anything! i said i better stop this right now before i make myself miserable. so i stopped.

i'm realizing this type of thing, photoshop/video editing/etc,  where i spend hours in front of the computer and the only thing i'm using is my brain, is just a huge trigger. i can't do it. i just can't. it doesn't entertain my enough. i need to do something where i can use more of myself. i need to interact. for my sanity. i don't want to fall back onto old habits. before i wanted the kind of job i could do from behind the computer from my home. because i was lazy and it was easy. it was comfortable. but thats not my life anymore. i want to get out there and do something i enjoy. something where i could use my brain and my hands and my personality.

time to re-evaluate what kind of work i want to do. i'd love to work for a catering company, or a small gourmet shop. i'd love to start up some kind of company where i sell homemade goods. i still love to experiment and cook. and now that i can't eat stuff i have even more of a desire to cook for others and watch their expressions. i want to see people getting joy out of something i cook. i have this idea to come up with low carb high protein treats and sell them to people who have has wls or are just trying to eat healthier.

i'd also like to work for an event planner and help plan events. its chaotic, stressful, but fun! i love to plan so i think i'd be good at it. and i'd feel a sense of accomplishment and being part of a team. of course that would mean crazy hours, including weekends. hmmm i dunno.

i'll probably end up with something clerical.

things i don't wanna do:

Sales
telemarketing
accounting
retail
food services (anything in a restaurant)

what do you guys do? and what would your dream job be?