My last meal

This sucks! I'm supposed to have my last meal tonight but I'm not hungry! Ugh. I guess the gastro pills they have me on to kill the bacteria is playing a part. More specifically the pepto bismol. Maybe because it coats my stomach but its noticeably taking away my hunger/appetite.

so far? I had cereal. 1/2 a bowl. I should eat something else so i don't wake up starving.

This weekend my husband and I went out for a sushi lunch on saturday. That was nice. I usually get dumplings and cooked shrimp rolls. Normally thats filling enough. But we went to a new place and they cut the rolls smaller. So I still wanted more after. But because I knew I didn't want more than say 3 or 4 more pieces I just decided not to get anything else. I knew I was ok. Not full, but ok. Still it was a real mental struggle for me. Luckily I was strong. My husband did the perfect thing. He didn't say I couldn't have it and he didn't say I could. He didn't make it easy, he left it up to me. Which was great because saying no can backfire. And making it to easy would be too easy for me. So it was perfect. Saturday night we went out to a steakhouse and i got a burger but i guess from not eating for so many hours (the medicine makes me not hungry) and the effects from the medicine made me get really weak so i couldn't really eat the burger. I had about 5 or 6 curly fries (haven't had fries in months) because they were easier to eat than the giant burger. But my body wanted meat. I took a few more bites and we went home.

So now sunday night/early monday, my last meal...what shall it be?

I can't see it as I'll never be able to eat these things again. I'll be able to eat everything just in a different way. And I'm ready to have a new relationship with food.

*update* last meal was a turkey and cheese on whole wheat bread with low fat mayo, diet cranberry juice, and for dessert i had a scoop (the last of it!) of no sugar added low fat strawberry blue bell ice cream on a cone. and viola! done. lol. Bye food. Its been a good run these 30 yrs but I'm ready to move on. Break ups are never easy. I'll never forget you. I know you'll come around and try to get me back. You know how to push all my buttons. Its so hard to not fall into old habits with an ex. But I have to move on. Its not gonna be easy, but its the best thing for me. I wish you well. I know you'll find someone else. Looking fwd to my new relationship.