ahh!!

I'm so excited and nervous!! I've been waiting weeks for this. tomorrow i go see my endocrinologist and tell him two things:

i want to have a baby

and

i want the lap band

and then i'll see what he says. i'm either doing one or the other. we'll see which he recommends. i'm nervous!! i hope it goes well. its a big deal. its the domino that will start my new journey.

thursday ed and i are going to the info session for lap band and friday i have an apt with a new general practitioner because i will need her to recommend me for lap band.

bottom line is this. i want a baby. i would like to do the lap band first. however if it doesn't work out for whatever reason (mainly insurance doesn't cover it) i won't do it right now. but i will have a baby no matter what. if i can't do the lap band now i can always try to do it later. however i feel good about my chances because i def fall into the "morbidly obese" category (though i despise that term) and i have proof of trying to lose weight in the past. i wish i had kept all the receipts for all the money i've spent on things over the years. oof.

anyway thats the plan. i'll let you know what he says tomorrow!! eep! :)