waa waa waa

everyon's pregnant but me. thats how i feel most of the time. lol. when is it gonna be my turn?!! really the only one holding me back is me. its like..when i really want to enjoy something i feel like i have to have everything set up perfect.

example: i'm starving and i come home with food. i make sure i go to the bathroom, change into my pjs, get comfy, find something good on tv and then i eat.

its like dominos. you want to spend hours setting them up because you know when you finally get them going its gonna be amazing and you want to enjoy that as much as possible.

anyway thats me. i want to make sure everything is set up before i start doing the baby thing. but its all coming very soon. i'm gonna see the doctor and then i'll have some more idea whether i'm gonna go for it and get preggers or if i'm gonna move forward with the lap band thing first. i'm looking forward to it. either way i'm very excited. i just can't wait to find out which it will be and get the ball rolling.