I'm not really religious but...

I was watching the movie Legion tonight. Its a thriller and I love thrillers. Its about angels who come from heaven, with orders from God, to kill this baby. This baby is mankind's last hope. And Michael, an angel who disagrees with this order, comes down to save mankind. Anyway great thriller. But while I was watching it Michael gives this little speech about why he still has hope in mankind and some of the things he said just struck a chord with me.

"And yet, in the midst of all this darkness, I see some people who will not be bowed. I see some people who will not give up, even when they know all hope is lost. Some people, who realize being lost is so close to being found."

This really hit home with me because I have been feeling so lost since I found out my insurance doesn't cover this surgery. I don't know if I have ever felt this lost. I have felt hopeless before. Maybe I'm dramatic but I've felt it before so thats nothing new. But I don't think I've ever felt so lost. Like...ok..what am I supposed to do now? But I have a sliver of hope, and I will exhaust it until I'm told over and over point blank "insurance absolutely will not cover this no matter what you say. the answer is no". Until then I'll just keep trying. And if it doesn't happen then something else is supposed to happen. Something more important. Sometimes things don't make sense. There's a bigger picture that you can't see. I really do believe that. Maybe I've seen too many movies. You've gotten to where you are in life for a reason. You're supposed to be here for a reason. There's a purpose. I haven't figured it out yet. But I'm open to it.