sigh...

seems like everyone is getting houses and having babies around me. i guess you see what you wanna see. when i was planning my wedding everyone around me and on tv was getting married. sigh...

omg awesome!!!

I voted today! YAY ME!!

2 1/2 hours in the hot sun but i did it! early voting. i'm so proud of myself. and whew! what a load off.

Halloween Cupcakes!

How do you make vanilla cupcakes into pumkin cupcakes quickly and easily??

Add some pumpkin pie spice, some cinnamon, and some food coloring (red and yellow=orange) and voila!

I added a little green food coloring to the vanilla frosting. i went easy on the food coloring because i didn't want to mess up the taste. so they look very very light green. but in person they look greener.




these are just plain chocolate.





Don't they look DELICIOUS? well guess what? THEY ARE!! they're yummy and pumpkiny!!

i blog good

i update a lot don't i? yes i blog like a person with no job.

thoughts on christmas

christmas through your children's eyes must be so wonderful. i get soooo excited about christmas, i'm like a kid. but its not the same. i tired being a kid again 2 yrs ago. ed got me toys per my request. and yeah it was fun for like a day. then all those toys got thrown out. :/ so that was a waste. i'm not a kid anymore. but i'm so looking forward to having kids of my own and seeing the excitement of christmas through their eyes. i didn't think you could really enjoy something through kids because THEY are the ones enjoying it. but i guess its a way to live vicariously through them. they're still young and not jaded and can really enjoy the little things. i'm dying to make treats and sweets for my kids for the holidays and decorate like crazy and get them lots of little gifts. i so look forward to the day. because i'm such a christmas lover that i think i will go ALL out for my kids. just like my parents did with us. they really made it special for me.

till this day i get excited when i see christmas decorations at the store in october. i start listening to christmas music as early as september. i get so giddy when i see the christmas episode of any show but especially cartoons. i love when its cold out because it "feels" like christmas. i love the smell of christmas. i love getting that warm tingly feeling you get at the holidays. like all is right with the world. its always been and will always be the best time of year for me and my favorite holiday. the only bad part about christmas is when its over. lol. i'm looking forward to having little meli and eds to share the joy of christmas with. :)

ps. i wanna spoil kids with treats and stuff i never had. i fear my children will have a weight problem!! yikes!!

popcorn balls

i have a halloween party this weekend and my plan was to make pumpkin cupcakes and popcorn balls. i've never made either before. so i decided to make do a practice run for the popcorn balls since i've already make cupcakes before. popcorn balls are completely foreign to me.

cooking the syrup took a long time. and in the end it was messy and a mission to clean because it gets hard. there was a 1 inch layer of hard syrup at the bottom of my pot. the popcorn itself, once mixed with the sugar syrup, was crunchy. its not for grown ups. if you have fillings or caps or crowns or anything its not for you! god i'm so old!! this is a really good recipe for kids. i'm sure they'll love it.

2 things i added. i wanted to drizzle chocolate ad caramel on them. i know how to melt caramel and i thought i could do the same with chocolate chips. WRONG! the chips got all clumped up and the ones that did melt were watery (from the milk) so when i drizzled it, it just soaked into the popcorn. the caramel came out the way i wanted to. pero imaginate, between the popcorn, the candy, and the caramel there's no way i can eat these. i don't know if i should bring them to the party. i wonder if there's some kids i can give these to.

anyway here's how they came out!

so fucking pissed

i go 5 months without weighing myself. 5 MONTHS! its hard to go even a week. but i resisted. fine. and today my doctor after expressing to the nurse who weighed me that i don't wanna know my weight (i told her last time i was there as well) comes out and fucking tells me. this really pisses me off. and to top it off she tells me i weigh 2 lbs less than when i started? in what universe!! my pants are looser, my waist is smaller, how in the world am i only 2lbs. she's saying i gained 12 lbs in a month? i don't think so. i have eyes.

she just gets on my damn nerves. she's nice and all but she's so needy. its like she doesn't have enough patients and she needs to find things wrong with me so i can keep giving her co-pays. i mean everything she told me today she could have told me over the phone. but i had to waste my time and pay $25 to boot! ugh! and she's like have you had your pap? yes. well come back for your pap. hello i have a gyno. i've had this gyno for years and i just met you. back the fuck off lady. shit.

*UPDATE* i weighed myself at home on the same medical scale they have and THEY WERE OFF BY 9 LBS!!!!! jerk offs. i only gained 3lbs since my last visit. can you believe that shit? i'm so freaking pissed. they have totally fucked me up and will no doubt effect my weight loss from here on out. but i'm relieved that they were DEAD WRONG!

School News

Well the approved the loan! yes! and i sent in my application. So now we're just waiting for the loan paperwork so we can sign off and stuff. The wheels are in motion!! ahhh!! i'm soooooo excited!! But I want to wait till I get my enrollment package to tell everyone. Although some people already now. I'm looking forward to finally having something to tell people at the Christmas party. But more than that I'm SUPER excited for school! I can't wait to get to class and learn and work on projects! It sounds really fun and interesting and challenging and just a great way to show my creativity. I love having projects to work on. I know I will do well. Because this is stuff I already know about and I'm really interested in it. Ugh I'm just soo excited.

i can't wait to start school. i can't wait to get a great job! i can't wait to finally make something of myself and be the person i have the potential to be. i have the relationship, now i wanna work on my career. later on i'll start a family. but for now i want to work on me. if i'm not the best i can be how can i give myself to a child? no this year will be all about self improvement. look out 2009, its the year of meli!

note to self -early voting

Your Early Vote Location

West Dade Regional Library
9445 SW 24th St.
Miami FL 33165 (Get directions)
Hours: October 20th - November 2nd; Monday the 20th to Friday the 24th 7am - 3pm; Monday the 27th to Friday the 31st 11am - 7pm; Saturdays 9am - 1pm; Sundays 1pm - 5pm
Early Vote in Florida starts on Monday, October 20 and runs through Sunday, November 2.

so good i had to eat it twice!

yes it made enough for 2 nights! so delish!!! tonight i warmed the quesadillas up in the oven. it made the ends crispy. YUUMMERS!

Veggie Quesedillas, Mexican rice, guacamole salad

turkey meatloaf dinna

with home made cornbread muffins

Elvis Costello without his glasses

Just had to share this. the song is terrible but this is the only place i've seen him sans specs.

wait wait wait recount!

Did I say Paul Newman? I meant Billie Joe.

BEYOND creeped out

ok so i told you about my old neighbor chris and how i found him on facebook. and how he's some crazy religious zelick (sp?) missionary who hates obama.

well it just got wayyyy worse.

he just posted this long diatribe about how barack obama is the antichrist. OMG!!! this is so scary!!! people like this not only scare the crap out of me, but they give normal christian people a really bad reputation. people like him are the reason i fear religious people. and it shouldn't be that way. because they're not all scary cookes who preach hate.

if you have facebook here's the link to what he said. its too long to post here. but i will post just the end of his rant. granted i don't know if he wrote it or just reposted it but either way...

"The Anti-Christ will be a man, in his 40s, of MUSLIM descent, who will deceive the nations with persuasive language, and have a MASSIVE Christ-like appeal....the prophecy says that people will flock to him and he will promise false hope and world peace, and when he is in power, he will destroy everything.
And Now:
For the award winning Act of Stupidity Of all times the People of America want to elect, to the most Powerful position on the face of the Planet -- The Presidency of the United states of America ... A Male of Muslim descent who is the most extremely liberal Senator in Congress (in other words an extremist) and in his 40s.
Have the American People completely lost their Minds, or just their Power of Reason ?"

one of the most ridiculous things said here is "A Male of Muslim descent who is the most extremely liberal Senator in Congress (in other words an extremist)" i love how you can just arrange things to make them mean whatever you want. thats what you do with the Bible as well. but anyway, the most liberal senator??? really??? i think not people. if he was so liberal he would never have made it this far.

*update* i made a comment on his note. you can see it if you click on that link. then he imed me on facebook. YIKES!!! i don't like confrontation! especially about politics because i know how passionate people can get. i thought he would rip me a new one. but he was very nice and just said he wanted to straighten something out. he didn't write it. he just thought it was interesting and reposted it. he said "politics huh?" whew! he was very cool. he said he liked things that got people talking. i do too. so i guess we can be friends and disagree without personally attacking each other. thats something i have to work on by the way. if someone has a diff opinion than my own i have to find a way to debate without personally attacking them. thats what republicans do and i don't wanna be like that.

i love things that look like things

but i especially love things that look like food!

you HAVE to check this out. and see if this doesn't make you CRAVE something sweet. i had to run and get an ice cream bar from looking at this.

keep in mind these are all miniatures.

Here's what I'm thinking...

Paul Newman was the most beautiful man of the 20th century in America.

I defy you to prove me otherwise. and don't give me any of that Brad Pitt/Tom Cruise bullshit because Newman blows them both out of the water.

Christmas youtube playlist

sorry guys this is just for me to have a place to get this playlist quickly and easily.

just wanted some background music

I made corn fritters!

batter


frying


done!


potatoes. the ones in the top left are burnt. why? because i can't smell!!! congestion. so i didn't smell it burning in the oven.


fried chicken from winn dixie. as you can see i couldn't help myself.


final result? YUM!

Sarah Palin Newsweek Cover- whats all the hubub?

Here's the pic they're talking about. click to see it larger.



really? seriously? peach fuzz? thats it? for an extreme close up i think she looks pretty DAMN good. what the fuck are you people complaining about? get a life. your side is losing and you're grasping at straws. this woman is all but inciting angry mobs at her rallies. getting her peeps so fired up about how evil barack obama is that they yell out shit like "terrorist!" and "kill him!" and she does nothing to reprimand that behavior. and yet this is what you're outraged about?? bitch please.

really creeped out

i was looking for old friends on facebook and found my old next door neighbor. it turns out he's a missionary now. wow. i never would have thought. i mean this is the kid who used to beat me up when we were little. he was an angry kid and had to take medication to calm him down. but thats not the creepy part.

the creepy part is he's part of a group called "Stop Barack Obama (One Million Strong and Growing)". very scary. its always extremely creepy to see young people like this. not that he's for mccain, thats his choice. but that he thinks barack obama is dangerous or some kind of anti christ, thats so scary.

so here's my dilemma. my first thought is "ew!! delete him now!" but thats not fair. we can still be friendly right? i should give him a chance.

This is whats going on in my head

Wedding Shadowbox Frame

So...it hasbeen 2 1/2 years since the wedding so i wasn't able to get much. i'm not sure why it took me so g-darn long to do this. all i could get was the wedding invitation, the bridal shower invitation, the bouquet which is all stick because the petals are so dry they fall off at the touch, the boutonniere (also dead) and thats pretty much it. i really wanted to get the popcorn wedding favor and the save the date. so its pretty skimpy and lame but i tried to make it as nice as possible.

and here it is...

sick

defenses are down. the sick is hitting me hard.

yesterday ed said i think i'm getting a cold. and today BAM i got it.

my body's not fully recovered from other things. thats what i think. so i got this one hard. which is ironic because i usually never get sick. its hard for me to get sick even when i try.

had the most confusing sleep. just kept thinking about the debate. everything was about the debate. really annoying. i was hot but cold a the same time. and i couldn't breathe and had to keep blowing my nose.

i know what you're thinking. why not just take nyquil or something. well i was trying not to because between the anti biotics i'm taking for my mouth and the pain killers (and later tylenol) i had to take very regularly during and after my recovery i felt like my body would get immune to pills. i didn't want that to happen. as it is i'm trying not to take any tylenol for the mouth/face pain i occasionally get. i don't want to use it unless its bad. also i took some tylenol earlier today when the sickness hit me like a truck. but fuck it. next time i go to sleep i'll take something. because this is most unpleasant. however its 4am and i'm not sure what to do now. i'm not sleepy but i want to lay down. but my body is so sick of laying down and the blood ends up rushing to my head. ugh...

I made turkey meatloaf

first time making this. i think it came out good but it was a little too juicy. i like my meatloaf dryer and crustier.

ingredients: 1 green bell pepper, 1 onion, 1 carton of mushrooms, 3 cloves of garlic, 1 bunch cilantro finely chopped


the other ingredients include soy sauce, worcestershire sauce, bbq sauce, seasoning, and of course turkey.

this is the whole thing in the pan before cooking. bbq sauce on top.



after coming out of the oven. it smelled so good.


the mess.


the finishes product

WHAT??? LAAAMMMMEE!

DAMMIT! i waited ALL weekend to see The View talk about the vice presidential debate only to find that Joy wasn't there. So the conversation was lame! without joy there to antagonize elizabeth it was so anticlimactic. what a let down.

thats like lusting over a hot guy for months and finally getting the chance to sleep with him and he prematurely ejaculates before you even get it in. yeah....its THAT much of a let down.

transitions

during my transition to adulthood one of the things thats changed is who i talk to. i used to have a lot of online friends. people i never met in real life. but recently, within the last year or so, i've been associating mostly with close family members and a few of my friends. i decided i don't need to surround myself wit anyone who isn't positive. its a waste of energy. so i'm happy to cut those other out of my life and only focus on those who really care about me. Its a small group of people but i talk to them very regularly. its simple. some may think its boring.

today i made it official by cutting out anyone in my myspace whom i've never met or if i have met them, i don't speak to them. with exception of bands i like and one or two people who are important.

my cousins, my sister in law (and nephews and brother in law), a few of my close friends, and of course my parents. and thats all i need! i don't do ims with anyone really. only erika and ed. and i like it that way. i'm alllllll about the email.

i added a new person to the roster. my friend ivonne. we call her big ivonne because she's taller than the other ivonne and older too. we met in high school when she was a senior and i was a freshman. she was like a big sis to me and i loved her. i recently found her on facebook and was so ecstatic. i'm so happy to have her back in my life and so excited to talk to her. the best part is she just found out she's pregnant! so its extra exciting for me. :)

Elizabeth, making viewers stupider by the minute

"Not only does she make the mistake of not knowing when the Great Depression took place, that is the ONLY example she can find to show that Joe Biden can make a mistake like Sarah Palin. What a joke!!! Palin continuously makes errors and Elizabeth the uses the same Joe Biden example over and over again b/c she can't find anything else to say."

taken from http://www.clevelandleader.com/node/6830

This is exactly what I'm talking about. How many times has she said "Joe Biden said FDR was the president during the depression!" Umm...and he was. If you're gonna make fun of him, get the quote right. He said FDR addressed the American people on the TV after the stock market crash. Well FDR wasn't president during the 1929 crash, and there was no TV back then. So thats 2 wrongs. But how many times does Lizzy wrongly quote him and mock him for saying "Biden thinks FDR was president during the depression". she's making herself look stupid. but the fact that NO ONE at the table corrected her, not once, makes me angry because you're confusing the american people. ed and i were like...wasn't he? i thought he was president then. yeah..didn't he end the depression with The New Deal and WW2? ELIZABETH IS SINGLE HANDEDLY MAKING PEOPLE STUPIDER JUST BY LISTENING TO HER!!

Domestic Diva

I finally got my first apron! isn't it cute?

sigh...

still haven't heard from Sallie Mae yet about the loan. sigh...i hate waiting. I just wanna know. i want to know for sure so i can start planning for school! so i can tell my parents. so i can get excited.

until then i can't put all my eggs in that basket.

GENIUS!!

Song for Sarah Palin

My cousin Alex's band Figghole just made this video for their song "Red, White and MILF"

Vice Presidential Debate

In case you missed it Joe Biden was the clear winner.

Homer Simpson votes for president

Expect to see a lot more of this tonight

now its up to sallie mae

there's a chance i won't get approved for a student loan. in this economy its a pretty significant chance. without this loan i can't go back to school. and then i'm back to my loser life. so...will they approve me??

*fingers crossed*