Note to self

Make business cards with your website information.

also thinking of changing this blog url. although it started out a roodboi productions blog it quickly turned into my personal blog. now that i'll be on the job market i don't want everyone knowing my business or my bidness as it were.

note #2 create your own voice over page. stop linking to voice 123.

hmm...

i've got some heavy things weighing on my mind right now. have to make drastic life changes which is very scary for me. i'm always scared at the thought of changing something for life. i have a very hard time committing to things. and to say i have to do something a certain way, or can't do something, or always have to do something, for the rest of my life sends me running for the hills. its like some weird mental trigger that is so scared. i know i can't keep up with anything. i have a problem with consistency. always have. thats why i can't stick to anything in my life.

i'm hoping that...because there are things at steak...i can do this. i just need to change the way i think. my brain fucks me up. fucking brain. fucking conditioning.

Great ideas for healthy lunches on the go

I just found this WONDERFUL website with some great ideas for on the go lunches!! my biggest problem is finding things to eat for lunch that are healthy and not boring. when it comes to food i get so bored easily. and you know, i don't have a fridge at school so i feel limited to what i can bring. also, i often stay an extra 4 hours for lab time so i often need to bring 2 lunches. and making my lunch every night is a pain in the ass. i wanted to find stuff i could buy ahead of time and making a weeks lunch in advance. and with these great tips and ideas now i can think outside the box (the the brown bag as it were) and make some interesting and different lunches. i can make cold things, hot thing and not worry about them not staying that way. AND i can surprisingly eat healthy and not get stuck eating boring "healthy" food. i was surprised at the yummy combinations i could make! i'm so excited! my lunches are gonna change for sure!!

here's the site, check it out. http://healthycooking.suite101.com/article.cfm/healthy_togo_lunches

Orgasmic Birth

I just watched the movie Orgasmic Birth and was disappointed. Instead of being some doorway to the secret of orgasmic birth it ended up just being a movie about natural childbirth. Not only did The Business of Being Born do it first, they did it better. This movie just used the same talking heads. The most disappointing part was they never told us HOW to have an orgasmic birth.

So I went online to try to find some answers. And I came across this article about this woman who was shocked when her cousin told her that she had an orgasm during childbirth. I found this particular quote to be very interesting.
She says:
" There are many different types of orgasms like G-spot, multiple orgasms, blended orgasm, tension orgasm, pressure orgasm, fantasy orgasm, vaginal orgasm, and extended orgasm. I just can't see an orgasm being associated with birth."

What?? There are all those diff types of orgasms?? Why didn't anybody tell me this??? This whole time I thought I was broken because I don't get orgasms via penetration and here I come to find I've been getting all sorts of orgasms. I mean g-spot yeah ok, multiple i've never had but i've heard of, but blended? fantasy? pressure? this is fantastic!

anyway..i got sidetracked with that one.

so after reading a bunch of articles it looks like the big secret is "if you don't expect pain, there won't be pain". lol. thats it? thats all you're giving me??

whatever. i could imagine i'm getting a massage all i want but when the pain comes it fucking comes. i don't think there's a way to control that. i'll just stick to getting through the labor naturally and try to make it a fulfilling experience. i plan to start in a bath as i love love love being in water. and i also plan to walk around, stand up, lean over, squat, and do whatever else my body feels like doing. i'll let my body guide me. and even though i'll probably get scared shitless and have an anxiety attack about the pain, i know that i can get through it. and i'll just have to keep telling myself. i can do it. and i will. there's no telling what kind of labor i'll have. i just pray that i can at least control where and how i have it. somewhere comfortable, with dim lighting, soft music, the freedom to move around, and very little interruption. and i pray that i don't have complications. the rest is in god's hands.

i'm 29 today!!!

i used to make fun of people who were 29. lol. its like who are yo kidding? you're so 30. lol.

28 was a good year! got a lot accomplished. lots of exciting things happened. and 29 is gonna be even better! i look forward to it. and i could sit here and say i'm getting old. but i'm ok with it. with age comes wisdom. i'm looking forward to my 30s. it will be a new chapter in my life. starting a career, settling down in a house, starting a family.

so i'm very happy. i just have to savor this year and not wish for it to go by so fast just so i can get all those things.

class cancelled today

my director called me at 7:30am..right after i got out of bed, to tell me that the teacher called in sick so class was cancelled today. so i was like...OK! and i went back to sleep. i had only gotten a few hours so i was more than happy to go back to sleep.

what i did today:

woke up, did some online tutorials for After Effects so that when we learn it this week I'll already be familiar. then i made some dr. appts (the gyno is a necessary evil i'm afraid). then i worked out. i did cardio for 45 min! woohoo!! and weights. then i came back and put a deep conditioner in my hair with a shower cap. and now i'm gonna take a shower then i'm going to watch a dvd so i can return it. then tonight we're doing groceries. productive day!! :)