i don't have anyone to talk to about this. so i'll write it down.

my husband seems like a miserable bastard lately. i can't tell if its me, his job, his schedule, the responsibilities of fatherhood, financial worries or what but he's just always either in a bad mood or devoid of feelings and proceeding to do everything like a robot completing tasks. i've tried to talk to him about it. i reached out and emailed him, he emailed me back something weird as if he wasn't hearing what i was saying and then never responded to my next 2 emails. he's horrible at communicating. he makes me not want to even bother. so i drop it and it becomes this big wedge between us. i'm really getting tired of his attitude. i want to be happy and enjoy life. he seems like he doesn't even wanna be here. i feel like, well fine leave then. who needs you? ugh.

waking up and having someone already be in a bad mood and unhappy with you is pretty fucking shitty. seems like nothing i do makes him happy lately. its starting to get old. seriously.

August was a blessing. september looks like its gonna rock.

july was really bad. may and june were a struggle. August brought about clarity and positive changes.

i am now currently in Ketosis.

in the month of august i lost 4lbs.

and another lb and another inch off my waist to date. i am now less than 10lbs away from pre pregnancy weight. its so close i can taste it!!!!

the pounds are melting off effortlessly but it is possible that its water weight. but i am gonna start a new workout routine this week. started today. i have to change the way i workout bc i don't have the carbs to do sustained workouts. so i'm switching to short, intense workouts.

today i did TABATA (4 min of squats). i tried doing a set of jump rope but i couldn't go on. i was very very spent. but i have so much energy the rest of the day. and i feel great. i really missed that feeling of working out. i haven't been working out for a month. i love the feeling of regular workouts bc i feel accomplished and strong. and i'm hoping it will ramp up the fat burning so i can really get the most out of this diet. i'm hoping to reach my goal weight  (pre pregnancy weight 173lbs) by mid november.

i will keep you guys posted.

my next goal after that is to get down to 140lbs. thats my BIG goal. anything under 173 is icing on the cake to me :)