I'm trying to work on myself and find ways to soothe myself without food. How to cope without numbing myself. I've noticed that I'm the type of person who, when things get hard (especially emotionally) i'm the first one to throw my hands up and say "i give up". i let myself get beaten too easily. when things get hard i walk away. and that goes for everything.
its one of those things i need to change about myself. i want to change. there are so many things about me that i want to change. my behavior gets away from me at times. i react to things without thinking. i'm embarrassed sometimes at how i act. i need to learn to control that more. and i need to give up control of other things. those things have nothing to do with my weight. but they are things i want to explore and work on as i'm working on myself as a person. i want to change so many things about myself. its gonna be hard too.
i'm hoping that my insurance will cover regular visits to the psych. because i think it will be really helpful for me. its time to tackle these things and become a better person all around.
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I hear you, I think being overweight all or most of our lived causes us to have defense mechanisms. I did finish "Women, Food, and God"... And it was excellent.I also read one of her other books "When Food is Love..." which also was excellent... I just started reading another one of her books..." Breaking Free from Emotional Eating", it is very good so far... As you can tell I'm working on my problems with head hunger since I have the physical hunger in check. *Maria*
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