Big Update

Wow....i haven't posted in ages. alot of things to report.

Last year was very very hard. It was the biggest test of my strength ever. So many changes that were NOT easy. Having to take on more responsibility around here bc of my husband's new schedule. it was not easy. i felt like i lost myself and i was just a servant for other people. i felt like i wasn't doing anything for ME. it really took its toll on my marriage. eventually we figured out a plan that worked. we agreed that once or twice a week my husband could stay late for tech events and once a week i get a mommy night where i do whatever i want and no one bothers me. this was so needed. i needed that time for myself. I can't stress enough how important it is for mothers to get time for themselves. for their sanity. this arrangement made a huge difference.

i continued my journey to get healthy. juggling a lot of balls. taking care of the house, my son, myself. my husband and i try to get a date night once a month when my parents can take my son overnight and that has helped alot.

we got a groove going and we were ok.

BIG ANNOUNCEMENT.....

1. as of Christmas I am now back to pre-pregnancy/post WLS weight!! woohoo!!! took me 2 yrs to get there but i did it!

2. On christmas eve i booked my PLASTIC SURGERY!!! woooohooo!!! i'm FINALLY getting rid of this fucking panni!! woohoo!!!

I'm getting an extended tummy tuck with lipo of flanks, upper back, and double chin.  My surgery date is March 16th! Right around the corner!!!

This year has been even more challenging bc my son started climbing out of his crib so i had to transition to toddler bed which was a complete nightmare. sleep training a toddler is a horrible experience. and now he wakes up super early so i have had to adjust to not having my "me" time in the morning. on top of that i have to skip naps so i can do my workouts (which i used to do in the morning). it hasn't been easy but i am strong and i've learned i can adjust to anything. so happy i have gone through this journey. its made me stronger (physically and mentally) and more able to deal with life's challenges. i really needed to grow and change and do the inner work. and i'm so glad i did it before getting the external work. i feel like i'm in a better place than those women who get the outer work to help them feel good about themselves. i already feel good about myself. i'm strong and capable and truly happy. and now the outer shell is just a bonus. you have to be happy with yourself despite any of the outer stuff. it took me a year to get there. but i'm there.


i feel very blessed to have gotten to this point. and proud of myself. i have been putting in the work for an entire year and will continue to do so. i have plans for all the fitness stuff i want to do after i heal. i can truly say my lifestyle and frame of mind has totally changed.

i know recovery will not be easy. it will be yet another challenge i have to face. but i believe i have prepared with all the inner work i've done. i know i can get through this. and in the end it will all be worth it.

hope you all are doing well. life is good! :)