Betty Page Dies at 85 :(

sad sad sadness :(

I saw the movie about her life. It was really interesting. She was a sweet person.

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Does anyone else remember these??

i used to get these from the 2 story Specs in the grove back in 1996. i was 16 and my mom would drop me and my friends off at the grove and we'd hang out there for hours. mostly at Specs. they had this section upstairs with tables, chairs, magazines and a cafe that sold sweets and drinks like these. I always got the peach one (2nd from left). These drinks seemed soooo cool to me. it tasted just aight. the little balls tasted like...the little cherries you get in fruit cocktail.

we would meet up with randy here and just hang out, talk, walk around, look at cds. good innocent 16yr old fun. ahh...good times.

I was writing this blog entry and I...Jizzed in my pants

Diana hangs out with Vic

Vic Ruggiero is the singer of The Slackers, one of my all time favorite bands. They're a ska band of course. I love Vic. I mean LOVE him.

Diana has a past with him. Sorta. She's gotten on stage with them before. And once in NYC she actually ran into Vic!!!! and they hung out and shit. how crazy is that? Well last night they came to Miami. A show I'd been looking forward to for months. But since I got sick and my eyes are too sensitive to light I decided not to go. Sigh...

so today diana calls me with a whopper of a story. something pulled straight from my fantasy. something so unreal so unfathomable that i must have dreamt the entire conversation. but...i don't think i did. but i'll double check later. she met him after the show, he remembered her. she said you wanna get outta here and get something to eat? he jumped at the opportunity. they spent the whole night driving around looking for cuban food at 2am. nothing was open. they ended up at denny's. they talked about everything. he thought she was so cool. she dropped him off at his hotel on Ponce De Leon. Hello!! yeah like right down the street from me??!!

At first i was so excited to hear this story. Now the more I think about it the more envious i am. Its my complete fantasy but it didn't happen to me. It never does. It always happens to her. So yeah i'm kind of jealous. It makes you think about the order of the universe and god and all that. you can't help but be bitter. even though she's my friend and i love her. but then i think well ok maybe she is lucky in these things. but maybe i'm luckier in other things. she had a hard childhood i had a great childhood. i'm married, she's not. i don't have to work, she needs to get extra work on the side. i mean..everyone has a different path. and maybe i have some things that maybe she's jealous of. so you gotta think of it that way. you have to be happy with what you have and not be jealous of your friends.

at least theres always the possibility that she could call me next time she hangs out with him and invite me along. right?

I cooked for the first time in over a week!

The last time I cooked was the Tuesday night before Thanksgiving. Then you know...the virus happened....so we didn't want any real food for a while. But today finally on Thursday night I felt like eating real food!! But light. keep it light.

I made a steak. I know i know..doesn't sound light. But its a small cut. and it was juicy and good. i haven't had steak in a long time. I haven't cooked it in 6 months and i was a big steak fanatic. it was good. but i'm not gonna go back to red meat. it was just a little change that i needed. and plus my body needed protein. i also had caesar salad, baked potato and a bread roll. it wasn't heavy like greasy or fried or creamy. it was light. and very tasty.

Struggling for Christmas Spirit

I'm notorious for starting to get excited for Christmas too early. This year it hit right after my first Halloween party (oct. 25th) but Ed (Grinch) felt the need to squash that. Why? You know? I mean whats the harm?? You do you have to be a kill joy? Whatever. So because he stunted my natural growth into the holidays I lost my holiday spirit. When time came to get it back it just wasn't there. When I was watching the Macy's parade I was finally able to get it back but then came a disappointing Thanksgiving Day followed by the virus. Knocked any hope of spirit right outta me.

But tonight I stumbled upon the lighting of the Tree at Rockefeller Center and got so filled with Christmas joy that I found myself acting like a 3 yr old with a new toy. I was soooo excited!!! Pure childlike joy. It was beautiful....if unappreciated by others. There I was working on my advent calendar (i'm making it from foam board) and enjoying christmas music and really wanting someone to share the joy with me. Ed came home, he was most uninterested as usual. Its such a bummer. Makes me feel kind of lonely. I remember how my mom would get excited about this stuff because she's a kid at heart too. I wish I had a son or daughter to enjoy this stuff with since my husband clearly is no fun. I wished that Erika and I could hang out together because I just know she would enjoy watching Christmas specials on tv while we work on crafty projects together. Don't you wish we were neighbors prima?

I wished so much he would stay and watch stuff with me or sit and help me with my project or just keep me company. But he went to bed. sigh....:( It gets lonely sometimes. Really lonely. When you're the only one who gets excited about stuff.

Right now I'm watching A Christmas story for the 2nd time today and I'm so happy to be watching something Christmasy while I work on my calendar.



I'm clinging to these feelings of joy. I would feel really hurt and deeply regretful if this Christmas season was ruined or if I didn't enjoy every second of it.

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