so annoying

i can't name my url "its personal" because some dumb ass girl started a blog in 2003 just to write 1 stupid entry about some dude. she obviously doesn't get the whole blog thing. way to ruin it for me dumb ass.

boring!!!

OMG this blog is so boring!! i'm like torn between my 2 sides. since i am a gemini you know. one side is funny and witty. the other one is deeply introspective. Sometimes I just need to get out my thoughts. But most of the time those thoughts are boring to anyone but me. Which is why no one reads my blog.

But I tweet all my witty little funny thoughts. lol. At least there someone reads them. So....do I blog more? Fun stuff plus inner thoughts? Should I start a diff blog for the boringness? lol. I think i need more pics don't you?

Toooooo many inner thoughts. not enough fun stuff. I need to revamp the bloggy blog. That involves changing the name! Since only 3ppl voted, and all votes were for something diff, it falls on me to pick the name myself.

So...stay tuned!!!!

Don't touch me.

I never realized this until this week but I really don't like being touched. Unless your a family member or a close friend or someone i really like, I don't want you touching me. I had no idea it made me so uncomfortable. I wonder what thats about?

Also, even if I do like you, if you touch me forcefully in a way in which you're trying to control me, I will freak out. I have this thing about someone trying to control me. When people pin down my hands I flip out. When people overpower me I totally freak. Its like they're trying to kill me. I literally fear for my life. I wonder what happened in my childhood to make me feel this way.

P90X

I'm really curious about this. Everyone I know who's doing it, loves it. And I don't get it. Whats to love about working out really really hard? Sounds horrible if you ask me. Especially since I hate working out. But people really like it.

So naturally I'm curious. I mean the only reason I'm even considering it is because I've been working out for 2 1/2 weeks straight and I feel stronger. But still..lol. Its just a start. I can walk up and down the mall and not get winded but that doesn't mean I can do P90X. Ed is curious too. It seems like something fun we could do together since most of the ppl I know who are doing it are couples. But the question still remains....can i do it??

You guys!! have you seen this shit?!!? i went online and saw some of the workouts. I almost died just watching these ppl!!! I'm scared to death!!!!

CAN I DO IT??? PLEASE TELL ME.

10 things that make me happy

in no particular order:

1-My husband in a white tshirt and boxers
2-Naps
3-Anything Pregnancy/Baby related
4-Talking with the hubby about our future
5-Getting letters, packages, email or tweets
6-Christmas
7-My loud, funny, wonderful family
8-Making something creative and showing it to people
9-Watching a dvd on the couch with the hubby
10-Cold weather/really cold AC

notice there's no food on this list. i have about 20 food related things i could put on here. lol. but since i'm not eating to be happy anymore i have to find other things to make me happy. :)

Baby making update

I've somehow got it in my head that I will start trying in April. That way I won't be big over the summer, I can be preggers for Christmas, and I'll have the baby in the early months. I don't want an april baby. Anything before April is good though.

But this only gives me less than a year to lose as much weight as possible. But this is not set in stone. After all, I don't even know what my job situation will be. Or our living situation. So it could possibly move to the following year or I'll just get preggers at the end of the year. We'll see.

You get to a certain point where you just don't wanna wait anymore ya know?

Shape Ups

How can a shoe be so comfortable yet make walking harder? i still haven't figured it out. i was winded just walking to the gym! how crazy is that? these shoes are fun. very fun. they kicked my ass at the gym.

we'll see how they feel later today.