My 2nd endocrinologist apt - glucose test

So I had to go in fasting for this test. So from 9pm last night to 9am this morning. Thing is, I woke up around 4am, I couldn't sleep! I had taken a nap so I couldn't sleep.

So I got up. I was nervous. Typical anxiety I get before something big. The hunger pains started getting to me around 7am. I have to say though, it was never THAT bad. I've had them really bad before.

So we get to the apt about 30 min early. I brought the hubby this time. We settle in with our laptops. They called me in right at 9am, i was shocked! The lady who took my blood was not the same lady as before. She was very sweet and quiet and kind. I told her I was squeamish with needles and she understood. She was very gentle with me. And to my pleasant surprise she took the blood from my hand an not my arm. Which was easier for me.

Then after she took my blood she gave me this really sugary orange drink. It was like sunkist but just the syrup without the carbonated water mixed in. at first it was yummy. then about 3 sips in i was like ughhhhh. then after i drank it she told me to wait 2 hours and she would call me back. that stuff made me feel like barf bc it was just too sugary. But i sat there with my laptop and watch adventures in babysitting on dvd. it was great. the time passed pretty easily.

Then right before 11 she called me back in. She took my blood again. Same hand. And surprisingly i have no sorenesss. i was sooo sore after that last lady. also the doc was a lot nicer this time. i've concluded that its better to go earlier in the day. by the end of the day they're all in a shitty mood. so i'll make a note of that for future apts.

then the doc talked to me about my previous blood tests. he said my blood pressure was ok. my cholesterol was ok. my testosterone was high. and that this glucose test would be able to tell him whether i'm diabetic or just pre diabetic. he went ahead and prescribed me the metformin. he also gave me a sample bottle so i can start taking them today. i have to start on one pill a day and gradually move up to 4 pills a day. but i have to take it really slow because the side effects can be bad and some people can't handle them. he also told me to take 3 vitamin D pills a week.

now a little about metformin for you guys who never heard of it.

its a medication to help with the insulin resistance. which is causing most of my problems. it should also lower my testosterone levels which will help with the facial hair, the acne and my periods should start to regulate themselves in a few months. also it should help me lose weight and help with my moodswings.

so basically this pill should help regulate my pcos. but i do hear the side effects can be intense. they include: nausea, bloating, flatulence, diarrhea, and frequent bowel movements. i'm kind of used to some of these from using xenical but we'll see. hopefully its not too bad.

but i feel very hopeful. :)

OMGEEEE!!!

I just weighed myself. I guess that eggplant water is working because its only been a week since i started it and i'm down 3.5lbs! here's the kicker i was bad and didn't exercise at all this past week. but i did eat healthy. can you believe it? i'm down 1.5 pounds more than when i did a week of HMR and working out.

I don't know if its water weight or what but i have also lost 1/2 an inch on my waist since last week as well. i will def keep up with the eggplant water. go me!! its nice to know that despite frequent feelings of depression and hopelessness i keep losing weight. little by little.

Where did Ivonne go?

I thought when one of my friends got pregnant I could live vicariously through them. Because isn't that a perk of one of your best friends getting pregnant?

But Ivonne has disappeared from the face of the earth. I guess every pregnancy is different. i guess some people go into their shell. Maybe she's too tired to get online these days. Too nauseous. Or maybe she's having issues of her own that far outweigh sharing your pregnancy with friends.

It makes me kind of sad. Kind of closed off from her life. But I have to respect it because who knows what its like for her. How would I know? I'm not pregnant.

I just hope she is healthy and that everything goes well. And that I get to see her before the baby is born.

You realize I'm being completely selfish right? lol. Yes i know.

sigh

feeling undesired

if you added up the series of events of the last 2 weeks you would say "he's just not that into you".

Started the eggplant water

It doesn't have a taste. but its a little weird because distilled water tastes diff than regular water because it doesn't have the usual stuff in it that they put into our water. so thats kind of weird. but its not the eggplant. the eggplant just gives it a grape like aftertaste. like if you have sliced grape halves floating in there.

i haven't noticed anything really except....well last night i took 1 oz (2 tablespoons) before bed and then i was lying in bed wide awake for hours. i don't know if it had anything to do with the eggplant water or the fact that i got overstimulated right before bed by telling ed a funny story. so who knows. i just took another oz right now hoping that maybe it will give me another boost of energy because i feel so lazy right now.

i don't know if anything is happening but i really hope it does something! i'll keep you posted.

Still losing weight :)

I was worried that after that whole HMR debacle (and those 2 weeks following where I was going out to eat everyday and not working out) that I would gain some of the weight back. I decided not to weigh myself till after my doctor's apt. Maybe that will be my new thing, weigh myself every month.


Anyway I did weigh myself and not only did I not gain any weight (yayayayayay!!) I lost a pound!! yay!!! and i can really see it in my body, especially my back, that i've lost weight.

Today I get to drink the eggplant water, so we'll see what happens. Anyway the point is I'm really proud of myself! And this really helps my motivation! Even though I hit a rough patch, I'm still on my path! yay! :) go me!

My first endocrinologist apt.

An overall unpleasant experience.

First of all my apt is for 3pm. I get there at 2:45 to fill out any paperwork since I'm a new patient. Well i ring the doorbell and no one comes to the slide doors. so i sit. then about 15 min go by, they call the other woman in the room. so i ring the bell again. then after a few min someone finally comes out to help me. i do all the paperwork and then i wait. someone else comes in after me and gets called in before me. its 3:38 and i finally get called in. she weighs me and then sends me to the doctor's office. not an exam room, his actual office, which is cool because that way its less pressure on me. so i'm sitting there and its 3:45 and he finally comes in just to shake my hand and say he'll be back. then i wait another LONG 10 min.

This is really unprofessional in my book. I mean waiting an hour for your apt? Then when he finally comes in the room he doesn't even apologize for making me wait. Already that shows me how much he cares about his patients. Then he starts asking me about my medical history and about how often i got my period when i was 15. Um..i'm 29yrs old, i can't even remember shit that happened a few months ago. He asked me things and i felt put on the spot and couldn't think of the answers. Only because I was nervous, i did actually know the answers. but i looked like a moron.

The good thing is he seemed really knowledgeable about pcos and even recommended a book for me to read. But here's what I didn't like. Instead of commending me on losing 13+ lbs in 2 months, or the fact that since I found out I had PCOS i've totally changed my life and i've been eating healthier and working out, instead of that he tries to scare me. I don't respond well to scare tactics. Instead of being positive and saying, don't worry i can help you with this, its not the end of the world. he says things about gastric bypass, and i should be 100lbs lighter and that i should cut out ALL carbs and its gonna be hard. and just one negative thing after another. i don't know about you guys, but thats NOT the way to get me to do something. it has the opposite effect, i feel boxed into a corner and i rebel. i mean what he was asking me wasn't so far fetched, seeing as how i hardly eat any carbs at all. so cutting them out won't be too difficult. but the reason i've been able to do so well on my own is because i knew i had options. once you take those options away from me i feel deprived and it ruins all my progress and motivation. thats the problem with these strict diets. they don't work! and i'm sorry but there's nothing wrong with eating small portions of good carbs. just more scare tactics.

Plus he doesn't know my diet. I'm so sick of being judged. I'm so sick of people taking one look at me and thinking i eat tons of junk food. He has no idea!! I've NEVER been one to eat alot. I always get full quickly. and i've been eating VERY healthy for months now! but again, no positive. only negative feedback. doctors are assholes. its bad enough i have to deal with this genetic disorder that effects every aspect of my life (which includes depression), but every time i see a doctor i leave feeling worthless. The only positive thing he said was that my workout regiment was very good. But he did say I don't have to bother with lifting weights. I think thats bullshit. I really wish ed was there. i would have felt stronger. maybe not have been so weak. maybe he could have spoken for me when i couldn't. i hate going to doctors alone. i feel out numbered.

He also told me birth control isn't doing anything for my pcos. and it could actually make the insulin resistance worse. so he wants me to get off the pill as of now. And i have to come in next week and do some glucose test. which involves coming in fasting, taking blood, drinking sugar water, then taking my blood again 2 hours later. so you can only IMAGINE how much of my day i'm gonna waste at this place.

good news: he did say there was medication he could put me on that would help my insulin resistance and help me lose weight. but before he can decide what the best medication is he needs to see how my body works. so he wants me off the pill, i did some blood work today and i'll do the glucose test next week.

by the way, the lady who took my blood was in a bad mood and she was NOT gentle at all. she had a bad attitude, she wasn't nice, she stabbed me with that thing and then she pulled it out all hard and it hurt like a bitch!!! and she didn't even care. she acted like i was a grapefruit and not a person. let me tell you, that whole office could use a class in bedside manner.