Oh carnie wilson

I'm watching The View and Wilson phillips was on. Carnie Wilson is heavy again.

Carnie Wilson is the argument everyone uses against WLS. That's everyone's smart answer, well look at Carnie Wilson. Yeah but for every Carnie Wilson there's 10 women who kept the weight off.

I feel for Carnie because its not easy. Its a constant struggle. And I pray, as I think we all do, that we don't end up gaining it back. Maybe she can be a cautionary tale for us. To keep us in check. I'll be honest with you i thought this would be a lot easier. I though the pounds would just melt off. I work out alot and I eat well and I drink lots of water and no soda or anything and yet I'm only losing 1-2lbs a week. Even with a tiny tummy its not coming off fast. I mean don't get me wrong, its faster and more consistent than without surgery but still. I see some people who got RNY who are losing so fast and aren't working out at all. Oh well I can't get into comparing myself to others. Thats not gonna get me anywhere.

I just would hate to have gone through all of this and gain the weight back. To her credit carnie has never gotten back up to the weight that she was when she started. Not even close. And she has had 2 kids. So her weight has fluctuated and its hard to lose it. I feel bad for her because she will always be scrutinized for her weight no matter what she does.

Beautiful Cold day!!

Tonight my best friend and I walked to Miracle Mile to soak up the cold weather (50's!). We looked at all the shops and stopped in the bakeries to look around.

 I munched on some protein chips

which by the way I totally loved. They hit the spot and were kind of like light cool ranch dorritos. I have to tell you, once I got used to the taste and texture of these protein chips I really love them. They remind me of eating Special K which I used to love to do. I used to get a cup full of special k and just snack on that. I miss that. But this totally makes up for it. I'm definitely gonna buy more of these. I love the ranch and the salt and vinegar. I'm totally gonna get more. I felt like I was snacking on real potato chips while I was walking. It really satisfied my hunger and it was 10g of protein! I'm so glad I packed it in my bag before I left. Otherwise who knows what I would have fallen victim to at all these bakeries. 

Ok  so we walked to the Christmas Park at the end of the mile and we played around and took pics :)

this is my best friend jenny with santa

city hall

we have no snow. so sand will have to do.

me and my toasty hoodie

Afterwards we walked back home. Then my husband met us and we drove back to miracle mile and wen to California Pizza Kitchen. That place is amazing because there's so much variety and not only do they have great appetizers but they also have a menu of just small serving items! It was hard to choose! I went with these tortilla spring roll thingies. Baked, not fried. It came with 8 small pieces. I think I was able to eat one. It was yummy! I let my husband and best friend have some and I took 2 home. When I got home I was able to eat the other 2. I also got, are you ready for this??? A slice of red velvet cake for dessert!! I know!! I'm sorry I had to. I haven't had cake in forever and I've been craving it. I wanted to share it with everyone and just have a bite or 2. But no one wanted so I took it to go. So now its in my fridge.

So yeah. I still haven't eaten it. I guess I'll just save it till I really want a piece. What can I say, I'm only human. lol.

By the way here's my Christmas set up in my little apartment.

Sugar Free Candy Haul

I went a little nuts today at walgreens. I was looking for some sugar free candies to top the protein donuts i wanna make. I was pretty blown away at the selection of sugar free candies they had there. I went a little nuts and got a lot. In fact I had to stop myself from getting them all.

I had to get these because I love toffee. And crumbled  it'll be a great topping on a protein donut.

Then I found these. Caramel and pecans? I mean come on man. No brainer.

Then instead of getting bags of other stuff I found this multi pack and had to get it

So there you have it folks. Walgreens is bringing it right now. Go check it out. I'm putting these all away in a drawer for moments of craziness (when i'd kill for chocolate) or for when i need them to make desserts. I just want to be stocked up on this stuff because who knows when I'll find them again. I know that just because there's no sugar doesn't mean they're guilt free. They have a lot of fat (less than a real chocolate but still). You don't wanna be popping these suckers like nothing.

*update* omg!! the coconut ones taste just like almond joys (minus the almonds). sooooooo good.

Despite getting stuck, It was a good night

Tonight it was cold for Miami. In the 60s. So I took advantage. We live in Coral Gables right near Miracle Mile, which is this strip of like 5 blocks filled with fancy shops (many upscale bridal boutiques) and restaurants. I've never walked there before because it was always too much of a walk for me. Its about 4 city blocks away, then the mile itself is about 5 city blocks. Well tonight we went for it.

We walked to the mile, walked all the way to the end of the mile and saw the big Christmas tree at the end in front of City Hall

Then I was starving so we went back down the mile till we finally decided on this Mediterranean place with outside seating. It was lovely

We ordered Falafel to start. I had one. Then we had this fabulous salad with meat on the side

Well let me tell you. I was so excited and hungry. I had one piece of cucumber, a bite of feta, a slice of onion, and an olive. So delicious. Now I don't know if it was because I ate them too fast and didn't chew well enough or if the raw onion was the problem (they've given me trouble before), but I got stuck. REAL BAD. Painful. Saliva was filling my mouth, my nose was running, pain in my esophagus. It lasted like 30 min. There's just nothing you can do when that happens but wait. My husband ended up eating the entire dish. Which I was fine with. I'm glad we shared one plate.

So that kind of sucked. But I walked all the way back home and didn't break a sweat. It was like nothing! I could have walked more! On the way hope we stopped at a cuban place by our apt and got a sandwich. I'm sure I'll get hungry at some point tonight. But right now (its been like 2 hours) I'm still not hungry. I'll probably only eat 1/4 of the sandwich but thats ok. 

I'm just so damn proud of myself!! I would never have been able to walk that much before. I hated walking. I would get so winded and my feet would hurt. It was awful. There was so many things we couldn't do together because I didn't like to walk so we couldn't explore. Now that I can walk a lot easier and have tons more stamina (and now that I'm cool with walking after a meal which i would never do before) my hubby and I can go more places and explore more.

Not Rice Krispies Treats

Well I did it!! Just like I said I would.

And guess what? They’re totally yummy!!

Recipe:

6 Sugar Free Marshmallows (I use these)

1 (1oz) bag of Kay’s Natural Protein Cereal (I used French Vanilla flavor)

A sliver of butter (maybe 1/3 of a tablespoon)

In a small pot add a sliver of butter on medium low heat. Just enough to coat the bottom of the pot so the marshmallows don’t stick. Then add 6 marshmallows. Let them melt (stirring occasionally). Once they’re melted turn off the heat and add the 1oz bag of cereal. Stir until the cereal is well coated in marshmallow. Remove from pot and put into a small container to set. Once it cools and sets remove it and cut into small squares. I was able to make about 8 thin squares. (All 8 stacked on the plate above). But you can make 2 medium squares.

Its as simple as that folks. A guilt free treat in a great portion size. And whats the damage for these treats? 180 calories,1.5g fat, 3g sugar, and 10g protein. You’re welcome ;)

FRENCH VANILLA 
Serving size - 1oz (28g) 
Servings Per Bag: 1 

Calories: 100
Cals. from Fat 11 
Total Fat 1.5g 2% 
Saturated Fat 0g 0% 
Trans Fat 0g 0% 
Cholesterol 0mg 0% 
Sodium 140mg 6% 
Total Carbohydrates 15g 5% 
Dietary Fiber 3g 12% 
Sugar 3g 
Protein 9g 15% 
Vitamin A 0% 
Vitamin C 0% 
Calcium 4% 
Iron 8% 

La Nouba Sugar Free Marshmallows (2.7 oz.)

Serving Size: 3 pieces (20 grams)

Amount Per Serving: (% Daily Value*)
Total Calories: 41, Total Fat: 0g (0%), Sodium: 0mg (0%), Total Carbohydrates:15g (3%), Sugars: 0g, Sugar Alcohols: 5.76g, Protein: .63g (1.5%)

Sugar free goodness!

The best thing I've bought so far? Sugar Free Marshmallows. Why? Because I'm able to make all sorts of yummy things again! Things I never thought I'd be able to eat again. Things like...

Yuuuup. S'mores baby. Using SF marshmallows and SF hershey's chocolate! Yummers. Taste just like the real thing!!

And I'm looking forward to making hot chocolate WITH marshmallows this christmas! yay! I'm even working on an idea I have for rice krispies treats using SF marshmallows and protein cereal. 

Now can we talk about these sf chocolates from Hersheys? I bought these

and these

Caramel filled chocolate?? And its sugar free?? whaaaat? I've only tasted the chocolate ones and they were good. So I'm keeping the caramel ones for those moments when i need one piece of chocolatey goodness.

apparently, if you're fat, you are subhuman.

I'm watching this show on TLC about obese women who are pregnant and the problems they face. i feel so deeply for these women, it makes me cry. the way they talk about them. like they're less than because they're heavy. my entire life, even as a heavy kid, i have been made to feel like i was sub human. especially when it comes to anything in the medical field. i have cried and cried so many tears after every apt. despite always being healthy, no high blood pressure, no diabetes, nothing, i was always treated like i was lucky i had gotten by without problems. and any second it would all go wrong. and yeah, maybe thats true. but i still think people should be treated like people. regardless of size. Especially when they're pregnant!

skinny women have been treated better by EVERYONE. and while it still pisses me off that heavier women are treated this way, and i will continue to fight against this for the rest of my life, i have to say i am so grateful that i won't have to go through this in the future. i'm so grateful that when i do get pregnant i will be "normal" and a healthy size and therefore be treated properly. i thank god i won't have to be treated like shit anymore. i look forward to being treated normally or better. i won't be looked at like i'm some kind of disgusting pig. thank you god for this surgery. for my new life. i'm not hopeless anymore. i'm very hopeful and happy for the future. so grateful. i will never go backwards. never again. only forwards.

i don't ever want to look at heavy women the way other people do. in disgust. i never ever want to be one of those people.