a little word of warning

when it comes to protein chips, stay away from sour cream and onion. they're disgusting. i tried the wonderslim kind and some other kind and they were both gross and i threw them away after 2 bites. yuck.

no more pictures?!?!?

blogger is telling me i've used up my capacity for pictures. has this happened to anyone else?? what did you do?

Oh my lanta!!

When I came home from Thanksgiving I weighed 203.5, then last week I weighed in at 204! booo!! so of course I had nothing to update. :/ I think it was because I was getting my period (got it this week finally!!) because when I weighed myself this morning I weighed...are you ready for this??? drumroll......

200lbs!!!!
WOWSA!! I was NOT expecting that! I was hoping to have lost at least 1/2 a pound or in best case, 2 lbs. but 4 lbs? Didn't see that coming. The weird thing is I've been so lazy this week. Didn't go to the gym at all. I think the fact that i didn't lift weights didn't add any pounds. And I had some red velvet cake! So yeah who knows, that might catch up to me next week. lol. but anyway this is pretty amazing for me. because my goal is to be in onderland by christmas eve and i am ahead of schedule! I just need to keep losing and not go up! I'm so close i can taste it! And it tastes like victory!! hahaha. what a great christmas this is gonna be! :)

meanwhile my clothes are falling off and i'm realizing i really don't have any clothes! sheesh. i need new pants really bad! and more than one pair. that pair of jeans i got that were a size 24 are big on me now. but i can't afford to buy new clothes. i'm spending enough money as it to look good on christmas eve. its funny, for the first time i have plenty of career clothes and dressy clothes but no every day clothes. thats a first!!

anyway! yay! happy friday!!

I don't get it

Shelly over at eggface uses Max Protein for everything. But I tried a sample of it and it was just as awful an experience as with every protein powder i tried.

The only ones I've been able to tolerate are RTD EAS Vanilla. I remember Pure Protein cookies and cream being pretty good too. Maybe if I buy the EAS or Pure Protein Powders and use those for baking maybe they'd be pretty good. anyone tried these for baking?

Product Review: Wonderslim BBQ Snack Bites

Ok you guys, today I had these and let me tell you, I LOVED THEM!! I know I know they just look like apple jacks or something. True. But they're so good! The flavor is deliciously spicy. They remind me of those spicy frito twists. And they were nice and crunchy. These are just fantastic. I'll have to buy more of these. They're the closest to real chips than any of the other protein chips I've had.

This is what I need to see a therapist about

now that its the holidays its becoming painfully obvious what my problem is.

i equate food with love and with happiness.

when i look at toys what are the toys that excite me?

fake food or toys that make food like donut makers, easy bake oven, cotton candy maker.

how do i show people love or spoil them? with food or candy or sweets. its the way i know to show love. why does food make me so happy? what happened when i was a kid to trigger this?

thats what i need to find out. because if i can address the root of this and overcome it, i can find other ways to be happy and other ways to show love. and i can stop working against myself. also i can be sure NOT to do this to my children!

LAZY! just pure laziness.

I have been so lazy lately. Last week I think I went to the gym once. The other times I just walked. Which is still a work out. Then sunday I hit the gym hard and felt great. Then monday I didn't go to the gym but I had that great long walk outside so that more than counts. Yesterday was the coldest day of this cold snap and I really wanted to enjoy it. I made plans to get out and walk around but i was feeling so lazy I ended up doing nothing. Today I finally got my period after 2 months of not getting it. So I'm very happy. But again, very very very lazy. This week isn't looking good for me. I gotta snap out of it.