I made cake!

ed was so wonderful this week but especially this weekend. i'm so well taken care of. you know when i showed him the video (from the last post) he said "you looked beautiful." WOW. that made me feel so adored. :)

anyway he's been giving me anything i want this weekend and what i wanted saturday night was cake.

so i bought the cake mix and made it. and i gotta say its the most perfect cake i ever made. i actually evened it out and it came out really perfect. not a lumpy mess like usual. i forgot to add the oil! so after 3 min in the oven i had to take the pans out, empty them into a bowl, add the oil, mix and put the batter back in the pans. lol. but it came out moist and delicious!

Meli's short SPECIAL

Finally! As promised! Here it is...

On the road to recovery

other than some slight bruising and minor swelling i'm almost back to normal. yesterday i was able to sleep in my bed! yes! thank god. and i ate real food...it hurt but i didn't give a fuck. today was less painful. but i can really only chew on one side of my mouth. tomorrow i go in for my follow up and get these fucking stitches out. they're driving me crazy. i had no idea it would take this long to recover. i probably won't be pain/swelling free till mid week!

video coming soon.

monday night ed's brother's family is coming because we're touring the school together on tuesday!! yaaayyy! i'm so excited!! i wish i could go back to school next week. i just wanna start already.

post surgery day 4

Last night was really rough. The vicodin took forever to kick in and i was so uncomfortable on the couch. i couldn't get comfortable! i just wanted to lay my head down so bad. ugh it was terrible. i don't think i can take one more night on the couch. i sincerely hope the swelling goes away so i can lay on my bed tonight.

thats it. they said 3 days! its day 4! go away already! grr! the swelling has gone down a bit. a good bit i guess. its early still. i'm guessing it will continue to go down throughout the day. it better. i don't care about chewing. i don't care about being ache free. i just want the swelling to go down today so i can LAY DOWN and go to sleep for he first time in 3 days!!!!

*update*
i fell asleep sitting up on couch. so tired. so uncomfortable. oh and i got my period. yes. i got it 2 weeks ago but i just got off the pill on sunday so my body thinks its time. so yeah. just add that to everything.

Post surgery day 3

Hmmm...weird changes. I rinsed my mouth last night. Not sure it was a good idea. or maybe it was a good idea in the same way cleaning out a deep gash is a good idea. it still hurts like a bitch.

feels like my mouth was hit by a truck. constant swelling and tightness even on drugs. i'm getting really sick of sitting up all the time, especially during sleep. i wanna lay my head down so bad!!!

my stomach is gurgling. gassy. feels like i'm on xenical again with the watery/oily bms. (tmi i know). but its my blog so there. here's the thing. i stopped taking the pill (birth control) sunday so i'm not sure if this is from that or what. hard to say what affect its having since there's no control to this experiment. i guess i'll find out about that in a week or so.

its early still. just woke up. i'll update later. todays gonna be good foodwise though because i have soup, feta, and LOTS of ice cream. right ed?



look at me! i'm dressed and off the couch! i washed my sheets and comforter and pillow case. and i even did the dishes. and i'm up and dressed. thats more than i've done in 2 days. go me.

but i'm in pain. my face and head are throbbing. today is the worst day.

post surgery day 2

its 7:54am. i woke up about 10 min ago. i slept on the couch so i could sleep with my head elevated.

sidebar: for various positioning reasons its been hard for me to type and i'm either typing at a weird angle, stretching to reach the keyboard, or typing with one hand as i've been on the couch since i got home yesterday. its been comfy but forgive my awful typing whether it be on here or ims. especially ims since i don't have the time or effort to keep correcting my spelling.

anyway i took a pain killer before bed. i haven't had any bad pain since i woke up from my nap yesterday which is awesome. and then i took a tylenol that time and sat up. i got a little pain with the feta but thats because some pieces weren't mushy enough and i had to work on them with my tongue and ended up doing a chewing motion even though there was no food in my back teeth.

thats another thing. i feel like there's who knows what in my mouth. i haven't been able to brush or rinse and i feel little things on my teeth that i wanna pick out but they told me not to go poking around with my tongue. i can feel my stitches. so i just have to let it be. i'm taking penicillin 4 times a day so that should hold back the infections till i'm finally able to rinse. i dare not brush though. that would be awful and painful.

anyway i'm feeling good now. i went to bed last night at 2am nice and tired. i propped myself on the couch. i'm normally a big tosser and turner. i've been hot since i came home last night. i've been needing it cold in here. but i think its because the leather couch gets hot. when i get up to pee i'm freezing. last night i slept with no covers and its 69 degrees in here. my top half feels cold to the touch but the warmth of my back half makes up for it and regulates my temp. today i'm not craving real food as much today so far which is so cool. 3 days is enough time to reprogram my body. so hopefully after this i get used to eating smaller (very small, pudding cup size portions) throughout the day. my body definitely feels better. :) maybe i can reprogram myself to stop sucking my finger and curling my hair. my biggest vice. i've been doing it since i was a kid.

today ed is back to work today. so i'm on my own. i should be ok though. however i'll have to actually get up from the couch today. lol.

post surgery.

isn't that just an awful pic? that was right after surgery. ed really didn't like seeing me like that.

can't chew, doctors orders say cold and soft first day.

when i finally ate at 5pm (hadn't eaten in over 12 hours) i ate 2 pudding cups. then tried to sleep. what else did i eat today?



-1 slurpee
-bowl of ice cream (not pictured)

i was sick of sweet soft stuff. so i got the idea to eat feta. its soft enough to mush with my tongue. it was great. i got my salty fix. and now i got white bread and smushed it flat and i'm eating a little piece at a time. sucking on it.

i feel like i've been eating all day but nothing is filling, hopefully the bread helps.

i'm gonna have a hard time sleeping tonight. gonna have to sleep on couch propped up. probably only in chunks of time.

by the way i documented this experience so look out for the next short report.