Eggplant Water

did i tell you about the eggplant water? i read that eggplant water is good for ppl with PCOS because it helps with insulin resistance and lots of ppl are saying that drinking just one ounce a day helps bring down your blood pressure and helps you lose weight. i don't have high blood pressure that i know of. but it couldn't hurt. lets see if it works. there isn't a set recipe anywhere but i can tell you what i've heard.


What you'll need:

- medium sized eggplant
- (at least) 60 oz glass container
- 60 oz distilled water


What you're supposed to do:

Wash but don't peel the eggplant. Cut the eggplant in half so there's a top and a bottom half. Put one of the halves away. Cut up the other half into cubes. Put the cubes into the container and fill it with distilled water. Cover container and put it in the fridge for 3-4 days. Then you can drink it. About 3 days later you should remove the chunks of eggplant from the water, but you can keep the container in the fridge and it should keep for a good amount of time. 60oz of water, drink one oz a day, so it should last about 60 days. Apparently you should start to see results in the first week. And by results i mean better blood pressure numbers and possibly you could lose a couple lbs.

I have no idea if its water weight or what. Or if it will come back when you stop taking it. All i know is that the people i've talked to like it and have been doing it for a week or so and are seeing results. Also its cheap and natural so no harm in trying. If it helps with my PCOS then i'm happy.

Now here's a big question. What does it taste like? Because lets be honest, it sounds pretty gross. But i've been told that it smells like grapes and tastes just like water. In other words, no real taste. So thats good. I can tell you that while i was cutting up the eggplant i noticed it smelled good, like grapes.


Now....here's what I did.

- all they had at the store were giant eggplants. lol. but for only $1.99 i didn't see the problem. lol.

- i couldn't find a glass container that held 60oz. i mean where the hell are you supposed to get that?? so i used an old spaghetti sauce jar. i washed it, then boiled it to sterilize it. its a smaller jar. maybe like 30 or 40 oz. i also bought a plastic jug with a screw on top that holds 64 oz.

-distilled water. i didn't know what this was. so i had to go to the store and find it. but i was able to get a gallon.

-i cut up half the eggplant but since its such a big one i used some of the cubes in the glass jar and put the rest in the plastic jug. honestly i don't know why it has to be a glass jar. i have no idea if it makes a diff. so better to be safe than sorry. i have one glass and one plastic. we'll see how it goes. i'll let you know in 4 days.


i did notice that the plastic jug is already starting to change color. i don't know if its because of the plastic or because it has more eggplant in it.

*update* 4 DAYS LATER

Today

I went to Jenny's and she sewed my new pillow! My old one shrunk down. I needed a new one. Now I have 2. When this one shrinks down I'll take the old one to her for re-stuffing. This way I never have to be without a pillow. Clever, eh? :)

I finally got my period. I was doubting it would even come. It came when I was at jenny's house. I thought it would be a doozy. but so far it hasn't been at all. i only got a little bit of scraping.

i had the best nap i've had in weeks! thanks to my new pillow! :)

the music video is almost done. i just have to bounce it to AE to put some fx on it and then add credits. but i'm NOT gonna put it online. not now anyway. I want to do a screening. Either rent out a space or find someone with a big tv. and screen all my work. i deserve my moment to shine after all my months of hard work :) then once everyone has seen it, then i'll put it online.

my plan is to learn dvd studio pro and compressor, put together an editing reel, learn some cool stuff in AE and put together an AE reel, try to get a job doing editing or visual fx and if not i'll get a part time entry level job at channel 7. its nice to have a plan. i feel good about it. like i have options. like there's hope. :) oct is my deadline. we'll see what happens then.

right now i'm working on customizing my cafepress site. and also working on some true blood t-shirts.

i swear i CANNOT do just one thing at a time. i seriously must have A.D.D. because i need to constantly be working on several things because otherwise i'll get bored if i can't switch back and forth every couple of minutes.

dear diary

i want to be pregnant!! most of the time i'm ok. but when i read about or hear about other ppl doing all these pregnancy related things thats when it really hits me. like...no fair...when is it gonna be my turn? then i have to just remember i'm the one stopping myself. for a reason. i want to be healthier...and i'm on my way. i want to have a job...and i'm workin on it. i want a house....this one is up in the air. frankly at this point...i'm willing to bend on that one.

i will say this to you diary. because i'm sure everyone else is sick of hearing it. i really really want to be pregnant. but here's the saddest most gut wrenching part.

the more i look into PCOS the more i fear that i won't even be able to get pregnant. there are people with pcos who have been trying to get pregnant for years. wouldn't that be the most vicious of ironies? all i've ever wanted was a baby. i wait and wait and work really hard so i can have one. and now i probably won't be able to have one of my own. its the saddest thing i can even think of. this condition already has me feeling like less of a woman. because i have no libido and therefore am a bad wife. not to mention all the physical side effects. i struggle every day with my femininity. but to not be able to get pregnant would be the dagger in my heart. then i wouldn't be able to do the one thing that makes me a woman.

i wish i could be normal. just normal. not special or anything. just normal.

Marriage rut

every marriage goes through periods of blah. we're going through one right now. not sure what caused it. if its something i did that bothered him (and he never told me), or the fact that i haven't been in the mood for sex in a while (guys feel closer to you after sex, go figure) or maybe there's no real reason. but its there. i don't think he notices, or cares. it could be one of those domino effect things. he's not affectionate toward me so i don't feel affectionate toward him but he's not affectionate because i'm not. its a vicious cycle. but i tried. i made the effort this weekend. i feel like he just wasn't interested. i should talk to him about it, but he just gets this blank stare like he has no idea what i'm talking about. so whats the point?

i know there are periods when he misses me and is happy to see me and wants to be around me. and then there are periods like now where we're just there. and it wouldn't make a difference if i was there or not. right now we're more like roommates than husband and wife.

i hope this lull ends soon. maybe it will end on its own. maybe i just have to wait it out. we'll see.

*edit* maybe its the depression. another side effect of PCOS and since this is my period week and i'm not on the pill, its probably that. i still think there's a lack of sweetness around here. but today i notice i'm having the blues. and i'm feeling lethargic.

Welcome back!

Been away for a while. Trying to get my shit together. and i have! :)

this has been a kick ass week!

Let's see... i've been working out every day this week. one day weights, one day aerobic cardio. its been rough. not gonna lie. hard to get back in the swing. i SO was not feeling it yesterday. plus i haven't been sleeping much and going to bed so late. but even though i went to bed late yesterday i woke up refreshed today. for once. i think its because i took like 2 naps yesterday. so i woke up at 8am today and got up. i went to the gym. it was so hot in there. the sun was just beaming in. but listening to your own music is a big help. it gets you going. so its not even time for The View and i already worked out and showered! :)

ok other than that...

I have been doing some actual work this week. I've done 2 things on the TO DO list i made after school was over.
1. order new business cards and 2. make a voice over page on my website. done and done!

then i did a rough cut of my music video for nathaniel and it came out great! he loved it! and it reminded me that i do have talent and i do enjoy editing :) got my juices flowing again.


i'm now working on the actual video which will contain little to no green screen footage.

SAE is STILL dragging their fucking feet with our refunds and certificates and i'm really getting pissed. he told me last week. now 2 weeks have gone by and nothing. I HATE THAT MAN. hate him. he's a giant fucking douchebag. i HATE having to depend on him. i wanna get my shit and i never wanna have to deal with him again.

but for the most part its been a great week!

back on track

last week was my transition week. i never ate anything bad, but i wasn't as strict as i used to be before hmr. my biggest splurge? sushi! :) not a bad splurge i think. although the thai iced tea was a sugary splurge for real. i need to transition into the way i was eating before. my choices aren't bad but i can make healthier ones. small changes, you know. also trying to get back to the small portions like before.

today i made it a point to wake up early and hit the gym. i did weights for the first time in weeks!! and boy i felt outta shape!!! it was rough. i felt like a weakling! lol. gotta change that. i wanna get back in fighting shape baby. i loved how i felt when i was strong and doing weights every day. gotta get back to that. doing aerobics is cool and it works parts of my body that i don't work at the gym but its not a replacement for doing weights. i need to find a way to juggle both.

also i did 30 min on the elliptical. working out the old fashioned way. it was work baby. work! but i did it! :) gotta get back in the routine. i miss feeling strong and sleek. i wanna feel that again.

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