Def convinced

I know that I will for sure get a stomach band. I don't know if i will choose Lap Band or Realize band but I know I will be getting one. Its not a question of if i'll be getting one, its when.

My dilemma: The whole process from getting approved to surgery itself will take 6 months. And for those 6 months I would be dieting. Which will be a definite struggle but i'm willing to make the commitment. The problem is, 6 months pre surgery, 6 months post surgery before I start losing decent weight, another 6 months before i get close to my goal. so lets say a year to a year and a half before i would even want to think about getting preggers.

but i don't think i can wait that long! i've waited so long already. besides my childbearing years are running out and i want to have 3-5 kids and i want to spread them out. so i don't have that much time. also i don't want to have to deal with having to derail my progress or having to take out the band (or loosen it or whatever they do) for pregnancy.

I mean sure I would love to lose the weight before I get pregnant and if the doctors really feel its the best thing for me I'll consider it. But my preference would be to wait till after I have a child. Because I feel like...if i have a child to take care of then I'll have something to occupy my time so the transition will be easier for me. So i'm not obsessed with what i can and can't eat. Of course I would wait till my child is old enough to not need me 24/7.

But you know me. I get an idea for something and I become obsessed with it. It consumes me. Especially when it comes to weight loss. I've actually read all these things (pre op diet, post op diet, dr. follow ups for life, support group mandatory) that normally would scare me away but this time it doesn't. It all seems very doable to me.

I'm not in a hurry to do this. Having to wait till after I have a kid will really give me time to think about it. If this is something I really want, I'll still want it later. But we'll see. I've heard soooo many success stories.

I also like that no one knows anything about this. I'm not telling anyone but ed and those of you who read this blog. Until it happens its not worth telling anyone about it.

But I did find a place in South Miami that specializes in weight loss surgery. Their website offers a wealth of information that I found very useful. Good news is they have an info session June 10th for anyone who's interested in learning more about weight loss surgery and I totally plan to go. I have my endo apt earlier that week so I'll talk to him about that and wanting to have a baby and see what he says.