Can't wait to work out again

This is so weird because for months I couldn't bring myself to work out. laziness pure and true. no energy. no desire. even the weeks b4 surgery i didn't even walk. and now...the weirdest thing...i can't wait to work out!

I can't wait till I heal so I can do the treadmill, the elliptical, go swimming, but mostly i can't wait to lift weights!! I always enjoyed lifting weights because the results are fast and you feel so much stronger. and i guess after feeling so weak i'm sick of it. I want to feel strong again. plus i can feel myself deflating and i want to get in there and build more muscle and tone so that it actually looks good.

even thinking of, way later on down the line, trying running. i hate to run but i might give it a try. i hear amazing things about it. almost everyone i know is getting into it and they say you get great results.

on another note i haven't weighed myself once since i got home. no point i'm bloated and full of fluids and stuff. i won't weigh myself till i'm healed up. although i'm sure they will weigh me at my 1 week post op visit next week. i don't want to obsess about numbers. as long as my body is changing. when i do start weighing myself i'll try to only do it once a week. but i would prefer not to do it at all. numbers are a tricky game. you can find yourself getting discouraged if the scale doesn't move. and i don't wanna get that way.

not gonna obsess about counting calories and all that. granted i'm keeping track of that and my fluids and my protein because its important i get enough in. but once i graduate to real food and figure out what works for me and what i should and should not be eating, i'll stop counting. i just want to make good choices, be more active and enjoy life. those are my guidelines. don't want to get bogged down with numbers on a scale or numbers on a nutrition label. thats not very freeing. and i have found this new way of living so liberating. i'm so excited for the future. now hurry up and heal mel so we can have some fun!