florida girls i need your help

for those of you who live in broward i need some info. i'm so ignorant with anywhere outside of dade county. what are safe places to live? what are some towns to avoid?

crystalized lemon powder

look what i found at the grocery store.

 i was like huh whats this? lemon in powder form? sounds intriguing. so i bought it.

i was hesitant because i have sensitive teeth and i haven't been able to have lemon in my drinks for a long time bc the acid wears away at my enamel. but i tried these, only used half a pack (didn't need the whole pack), and they're great! wow! finally able to have lemon again! sweet!!

dr. apt

well that went exactly as i suspected. bla bla bla, don't eat any carbs, blah blah blah you should be losing 10lbs a month easily, blah blah blah you should be 130lbs. oh really? because you NEVER set a goal weight for me. never even asked me. the goal i set for myself was 140lb fuck you very much. oh and one more thing, you can eat my ass.

anyway, when she asked if i'm taking my multi i told her i switched to a prenatal and she said WHY? i told her i want to try to conceive starting in august. she's like, you're supposed to wait 2 years. i just looked at her with a face like, thats nice. her reason?? well despite what everyone around me thought, that it was somehow unsafe for me, that maybe my body couldn't handle it, or that i was being somewhat irresponsible, the real reason was she wanted me to lose all the weight before i get pregnant? why? because i'm gonna gain weight. DUH sherlock! so you see? there's no medical reason for me not to try for a kid. so there. in everyone's face. and by everyone i mean ppl who don't read this blog. these people don't care about me. if they did they wouldn't leave me waiting for an hour. all they care about is numbers, stats, big results so they can look good. and of course that sweet sweet return business that is plastics.

someone asked me the other day, what are these ppl doing for you? the answer is absolutely NOTHING. all they do is make me feel shitty and waste a huge chunk of my day. honestly, every visit is so completely meaningless. they weigh me, take my blood pressure, tell me i'm not skinny enough, ask me what i eat, lecture me for not being perfect, touch my stomach and then send me on my way. i really have no reason to go to them unless there's something wrong. i don't even feel like there's a reason to go back for my 1yr follow up. they don't even care about my vitamin levels because they haven't taken my bloodwork since surgery.  well fuck them. fuck them right to hell. i don't need it.

everyone stresses how important it is to see a surgeon. honestly, unless something is wrong i really don't see the problem. my reg doc can take my blood and check my levels. i've just had it with them.

oh whaaaaat?

i did boxyflex twice this week. after monday i was so sore for 2 days i could hardly sit!!! i weighed in thursday morning bc i knew after my thursday workout i would gain more muscle. i weighed in at 170lbs. which is good. i was at 169lbs before the 2lb weight gain from kickboxing. so at least i lost a lb and i'm not just putting on more and more weight. then for shits and giggles i weighed in this morning.

168.5lbs!!!!! YES!!! i'm down 1/2 a lb from my last lowest weight!! yes!! thishas me sooo jazzed i'm thinking of going to the 10:30am powerflex class today. i know i should give my body a day to recover but how badass would it be if i went? i know i'm not gonna weigh this when i go to the surgeon today. because a. they scale is a bit diff than mine and they have a diff starting weight for me. b. i have to eat before then so its gonna throw my weight off anyway. so this workout won't ruin things for me. because i already know i was down to 168.5!  woop woop! i am so sighing up for bally's.

*update* i did go to the 10:30 powerflex class! ha! badass.

I WANT ICE CREAM!!!

is there any kind of ice cream we're allowed to eat. lol. what can i eat a cup of that i don't have to feel horrible about later? any suggestions? frozen yogurt? something low sugar? low fat?

Do you still drink protein shakes?

You know what i noticed? since i started working out i haven't wanted protein shakes. i drink one before a workout but i used to drink one every morning but now i'm like I WANT FOOD. i just want food now. i would rather eat than drink a protein shake.

i've heard some people say they stopped drinking protein shakes when they started eating food. i've heard some say they were years out and still drink a protein shake a day. i was just wondering where you guys stand on the whole protein shake thing.

i feel a bit guilty not drinking one every morning, and sometimes not at all, but i guess its not a bad thing to get my protein from food instead.

i'm STILL sore!!!

its been 2 days and its still hard to walk. sitting down to pee is painful! even laying bed, moving around hurts! can you believe it? such an easy work out and i've never been this sore in my life!!!

naturally i'm looking fwd to going back.

i was thinking of taking a cardio class tonight. but i got my period today and i'm super sore so i don't know if thats gonna happen.

speaking of which, i have my period, i'm gonna do this workout again thursday night. i weigh in friday morning. its not gonna be good. between the water retention and the muscles. foggedaboudit. i hope i just keep losing and gaining the same 2 lbs and not just gaining and gaining. bc that would be horrible!

we'll see.